to all concerned...
was just feeling sick.
haha.

dun mind me.

and my nick stays true.
GOODBYE.

i am so jaded.
my legs feel numb.and so is my heart.

my mind draws a blank.
my heart fires blanks.
why cant the world be a much more simpler place?
why things are never wad they seem?

aren't we all drained.

this is really shit.
my internet browser is really shit.
typed a long post and den it got error.
den i cant recover my post.
fuck.

i cant be bothered to type out wad i had previously lah.
MERRY CHRISTMAS.
i hope the festive bug bites me too.

in a fast paced society, perfection and speed are essential.
otherwise tempers flare and relations sour.

my dad came home.b4 he did, he pressed the doorbell.
MANY times.its FREAKING irritating whenever ANYBODY does that.
i mean, why the fuck cant u wait?he told me he never heard anyone
coming to open the door.
so wad?walking down the stairs to the door frm my room dunnid time ah?
u dun have keys ah?in irritation i shouted 'OEI' .
den later my dad asked why are u getting tempermental these days.
i said u were irritating me with u continously pressing the doorbell.
he being the ever competitive just has to get back at me.
by saying these days ah i dunno wads wrng with u and me.
u everytime see me talking to u as a lecture.(which is actually true.just that
i never tell him in the face only.and he dosen't want to open up his eyes
bigger to see it.)

smetimes why cant ppl wait?ur impatience rubs off on others.
its like ur home already.cant u wait a short while b4 smeone opens the door?
rather den kip pressin the doorbell.u and the persn bth get fed up.
so wad good does it do?
i'm not saying wrked as easy and slow as u want.
but sometimes give the persn a break man.(depending on the circumstances)
ah fuck lah.u ruined my day.NIGHT actually.

hm...
i dunnoe why i'm here at such a
retarded hour...
for some stupid reason my msn cannot
sign in...

my internet sometimes is a lil fugly...
urgh...
and so is my tagboard.
gonna change it soon enuff.
went to a job interview today...
or rather 13th december...
the person was good in persuading ppl bah...
but the notion of no basic pay just shuts it.
i dun care how u view me.
for me, now, i nid some money urgently.
i cud have viewed it as a challenge...but den the
working hrs are short...u wun hear me complain abt dat alot...
and its a promoting sales job...
so i cant really earn much frm a job that solely pays
u on the amt of sales...
maybe i'm not ready to step out of my comfort zone.

hm...i've been updating irregularly...well..i dun feel like it anymore.
not that i or anyone cares.
this is just a shit blog.
never held much good memories anyway.
come to think of it....i wud just complain here.
well at least it serve to ease my frens ears frm
my whinings!haha!

k.'m bored.time for something else.
chiao

days have been breezing past in
a blur.
people change...or isit just me?
am i that self-centered to u?
am i that vain in ur eyes?
tell me seriously do u loathe me?

pls take away the masks for i am sick of it.
just as u are sick of me.

be my escape.

ok yesterday was flora's burfday...
FINALLY 16 liao...lolz
it was alright lah...i wun lie... =)
it was also very tiring yah...
and its official: I'M B-R-O-K-E.
no money!

ok.
so wad am i thinking?
WAD AM I TO DO?!?!?!?!?!

some fotos frm that night! =)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/66174221@N00/sets/1498143/

i think i'm going to be
a complete jackass someday.
or maybe i am already one.
so screw me.
feelings rampaging around my head and heart.
tots never ceasing to cause me grief.
i'm sorry.
i noe it wun heal anything.i wun cover up anything.
i think i nid to be away for a moment.

it seems not too long ago
u were the supporting character in my
novel.and now it seems ur the protagonist.

wonderful.

tonight is PROM!woots!
excited!nervous!
ok.gtg.now.bye.peeps.=)

well.its been a 'BLAST' huh this few days.
sometimes the days are so fucked up i feel like
spewing that so much vulgarities that wud make
ben lau look like a saint compared to wad i have got to
say.i'm not going to talk abt wad happened yesterday, the day b4
and so on.i dun plan to rub salt into raw wounds.
or maybe i have inexplicably done so.

on to happier topics den.
today is the day b4 prom.which means today is monday.
which also means angeline and company are coming
to my place today to put the drinks and food for the chalet
at my place.see i so good.let ur use my house as a storage room.
k i noe i'm bhb. (c =
tml is prom.which also means tml is tuesday.
tml also will be holding the chalets.
YEAH!haha.so excited to see everyone in their
good looking attires!haha.
well den.enuff for now.gtg.chiao.

using iWebtunes for my song.
Coldplay: The Scientist.
i have the song.but just too lazy to create a hostsite.
ah well.
well.its slack and slack this few daes.
and SHOPPING!being going out to look good
for prom shop and shop!
i'm running out of money sia...haha.
and i'm gaining weight!
or probably just have more fats den muscles.
dats bad.=(

ok.i've been very inconsistent in blogging.cos its losing its novelty.
but i'll still come here once in awhile.

and i'm still actively looking for a job!
who do i kill to get a job?

i'm back!miss me people?haha...
dunnoe just dun feel likebloggin...
yupx...the EXAM IS FIANLLY OVER!!!WOOTS!

On the 22nd i watched harry potterwith geraldine
and co. to celebrate herbirthday!yeap.went to p.s. to watch.
had a cake and dinner at pasta mania...
oh yah i had my ear pierced.=D

today i went to sch thinking i'm going to get my testimonial frm
my teachers.turns out they dun issue it anymore.=(
fuck lah.cb.ask us g to sch at 9.give us the cert. and paper den
jiu go liao.like 9.30.wtf!?
why cant they like give it to us on the last day of the exam?
sometimes i dun understand the sch.and vice versa.
ok.den i went hme and asked GF out.
so went out with sy and GF.shopped around wisma attria.
and far east.my legs damn pain now lah.
but we looked for sy de prom stuff.yupx.
got home like 7+ like dat.
had dinner at home.ALONE.=(
and here i am.

i wun ask.i dun want to go thru the pain.
neither do i want to put anybody in a spot.
fuck you.

FUCK YOU!
why cant u fucking understand?!
cb.
i fucking hate you cb.
knn...everything also fucking no.
why cant u just let me do my own thing?!
freaking bitch.
ARGH!!!
FUCK YOU!

i am happy.
in fact i havent been more happy in a few months.

a huge weight has left my mind,shoulder.
though i dun feel happy(very contridicting hor)
but its like i've got nthing holding me back now.
I'M FREE!free as a bird,dolphin,cheetah .etc.
ok i noe its not funny.=)

today got one xia suay thing happen...lolz.
i tot today de A maths was at 8 so i woke up at
5 to prepare to go to sch...
den i really went to sch somemore...wah lau...
i see like eh how come got sec 5s de...
they dun take A maths rite?or do they?
den i saw su ying...den she carry her portfolio...
den i lao lor...i check my confirmation slip...
-_-"...its 1400 hrs...i saw wrong...i saw the time of the
PREVIOUS paper...which was 0800 hrs...
wah i totally sian diao...
den i dun want to stay in sch...so long!
somemore so paiseh...
wah so in the end come home...
haha on the way got some sec 5s go to sch...
stare at me why i go the other way...zzz
so here i am once again...

i've got no confidence le...how?
haha i dun want to do badly in this exam leh...
aiyah bo pian lah hor.
haha.wads done is done.
NO PT CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK.
yeap.nid to go and zhun bei liao.
bye.and good luck for the rest of the papers.

dunnoe wad to say.
HOW?
too bad lor.
no chance for regrets.
never cry over spilled milk.
at least i noe i wont.

how i wish it had never turned out like this.
i dunnoe wad u mean.
and it seems u dun care anymore.
neither do i.
GOODBYE.

8 more days guys!!!
JIAYOU!!!
FREEDOM!WO LAI LE!!!

oh yah one more thing.
i'm currently looking for a job.
anyone got lobang can accomodate me
can tell me? =))
thanks.

hm a update on things this past week...

havent been studying much...
mostly just lazying arund...
yup.but i hope i can finish most of the subs that
i think i can score...
have cut dwn time infront of the computer...
i noe how to restrain myself...haha.

and Jay Chou's new album is out in stores now...
haha...one of my favourite singers...
sings very sad and soulful music...though at times
cant make out wads he is singing...haha...
the news called his singing 'Mumble Rap' ...

the exams hasn't even started and i'm thinking
bout the end of it...haha and wad i'm going to do
over the long holidays...
yeah well...no wonder i cant concentrate...
and my damn memory...either i nid a new
memory card or i nid to delete away stuff...
doubt u can configure a human brain like dat...

actually i like the way i'm living now...
haha studying dun actually suck...just nid to understand...
haha...yeap...just found out physics is actually qute easy...
just nid to understand why this and that wud happen...
though there are formulas to memorise u can play
around with them...yup...
but the first paper is ss...
and i'm not sure wad i've studied wud come out...
even if it does i'm not sure if i haf enuff time finishing
the essays AND the sbq all together...and get the pts
for my eassay all in...
and i found out that haf a small sports break in between
studying relaxes the mind and allows u to concentrate more...
after a shower that is...

bird flu epidemic...
lucky havent hit singapore yet...
the world is full of dangers we haf yet to experience...
first hand or otherwise...
the future seems insecure for me...

insecure.fear.
courage.
whats next?

hm...i'm SICK.
as in physically...
got fever.
temp fluctuating arund 37.3 degrees.
haha.and its becuz of these few nights that were very cold.
den nvr cover with blanket.so caught a cold.
yup.
so it aint the the NOODLES GF.haha

i'm also wondering why the past few daes i've been
trying to study but i read in liao...
cant stick in the mind leh...
isit distracted?
hm...
yes very scared for the BIG exam.certainly hope i can pass.

must i be bolder?
when will i do enuff?
or haf i not done my best?

hm.yes after the practiicals when i SHOULD
be STUDYING HARDER i haf been SLACKING around.
wee.A man can change his stars.NO PUN INTENDED.

chinese is next week.shall i put in some effort?
haha.this ain't funny.i wondered what d i REALLY aspire to be.
and the answer was this. .NOTHING.
i had absolutely no freaking idea where i want to go.
i'm still like a baby waiting for the silver platter to fall into my lap.
i'm still waiting for ppl to spoon feed me.
and yes.I'M AFRAID.yup.afraid of the future.
wad has it got in store for me.wad perils await.
wad adventure beholds.

fear.

either u face it or u shall cower frm it.

ok.i'm quite lazy to blog this few days lah.
although have not been going to sch.
i have not studied much.
my moods this few daes has also never been better in the last few weeks.
ok.i'm bored.got to go now.
i noe.i'm bloggin for the sake of bloggin. =)

GIMME ALL YOUR POISON.

today was so-so.
tml's sci practical.wo0hoo?
well den.YOU have just ruined my day u noe that?
sometimes i wonder why i ask.
zzz.

today was some wad relaxed.
went to sch in the morning for maths and den sci remedials.
yup den in the afternoon went out to study with GF.
well at least been with her ain't that stressful.
can talk abt my probs.its the real me?relaxed.
studied my geog abit while she did her chinese.
there are some UNBELIEVABLE ppl in the world lah...

we studying at mac.den got the middle-age guy sitting at the back on my righthand sde.
a jc guy and a girl our age was sitting immediately beside us.
and it so happens the middle age guy was doing his work.
and there were many small pri-sch kids in mac.
making alot of noise.i also felt they were VERY noisy.
however the middle age guy made his irritation more obvious.
and somehow this jc guy tot he was very vocal.
NOPE HE DIDN'T SING.HE DID SOMETHING WORSE.
he started to talk loudly.for some reason it was aimed at the middle-aged man.
the middle-aged man was already irritated liao but it seems like he had a phone call.
and he picked it up.
thats when the jc guy started to shoot his mouth off.
he said to the grl sitting with him "HEY U KNOW THAT DAY I SAW SOMEONE TAKING OUT A PHONE AND TALKING TO IT AT THE MRT?HE WAS LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE FOR SOMETIME AND DEN LATER FOUND OUT HE HAD NOT RECEIVED A CALL.HE WAS LIKE DOING THE PICK-UP-CALL ACTION TO LIKE MAKE A STATEMENT LIKE 'HEY,I GET PHONE CALLS SO I'M POPULAR!' KINDA THING."

hm.now its was going on in my mind.
wtf fuck has it got to do with u.and for ur info its not remotely FUNNY.hurhur.

i couldn't hear wad the girl said the the jc guy but he started again " I MAKE IT AN ISSUE WHEN GROWN UPS MAKE IT AND ISSUE WTH KIDS " or something like dat.so are u trying to say ur a HERO?well u could be a verbal one.shoot ur mouth off b4 anyone can THINK. jc student and dat DENSE? can u believe his STUPIDITY AND CHEEK? so wad does that make u shooting ur mouth off loudly?lolz.u ain't no better then the middle-age guy man.u think the kids are thankful for u ah?haha they might out u with the middle-age guy under the same category:bai-chi.

whu was he trying to impress?GF?his frens?
me and GF were like rolling out eyes lah and trying not to laugh.

he went on " I dun like POSERS LAH. JUST WANT TO ACT SEH.TRYING TO ACT POPULAR BECUZ HE ACTED LIKE HE RECEIVED A PHONE CALL.LIKE I CARRY A LAPTOP AND MUCH BOOKS ACTING LIKE SOME UNI. STUDENT BUT ACTUALLY THEIR NOT?SO POSER.I'M ONE WAD! I LIKE TO PICK FAKE PHONE CALLS MAH."

wad does that make u sucker?
a quote my father used frequently:" THIS PEOPLE HAVE SHIT IN THEIR BRAINS U KNOW..."

yeap.thanks to them i lost appetite to study.retards.
went home very tired.
tried to study in the end used the computer.woohoo.

haha.want to thank someone who specially made time
to take ut frm her studying time to chat with me.
gave me advice yeah?haha ur a dirty person.MARIKITA UR HEAD AH!
yeah gd luck tml! =)
so i'm done.

hm...haf learnt to let go?
haha it takes time yeah?.

over-sensitive: thats whu i am.
limits.
there nthing i can do.
dun want to piss me off ,just do it behind my back.
i wont wanna noe.
someone said "sure we can do illegal stuffs.just dun get caught."
believe me i was really pissed that day.
but there is nthing i can do.really.
so pls continue wat ever we are doing.
ignorance sometimes is a bliss.
why do i care?
why SHULD i care?
i dun want you to feel sorry for me.
and i dun need ur pity.

today is a rainy day.
played pool with nelson susan lorraine and zhikang.
was darn cold inside the k-pool at plaza lah.
play until fingers went numb.
lorraine went off first to go to tuition.
den later the rest went down to KOPITIAM to eat smething hot.
thats to warm ourselves back to life.haha.
yeap den went back.such a sad existence.
oh well.

i'm done.

i'm sorry for spoiling moods of all, especially during recess.
i'm sorry for letting u guys down.
but today is just not my day.

it ISN'T controllable anymore GF.
i feel like whacking things day by day.
that explains why i keep playing sports and run myself
to the ground.
i nid to keep my mind of things.
i'm still trying to let go.

and talk abt friendships.ppl are probably busy now.
dun take much into mind.
i'm really sorry for neglecting one grp.i really am.
and at my lowest pt TRIED to pick me up
but the choice of making myself better is still ultimately mine.
but thanks anyway.=) i really appreciated it.
where were u other guys?
tml will be a better day?
things will still be the same.
to change things dun sit and wait.
change it with ur own will and hands.
i will probably still suffer frm a few bad days.
but i'll always be back.

rite now hated my best fren.i really hate him now.
for the torture he is causing me.
i feel like the whole wide world is laughing at me.
i'm the idiot.fine treat me like one.
I'M DUMB,IGNORANT,POMPOUS AND A PAIN TO BE WITH.
FINE.den scram.

next time i shall not poke my noes into where its not wanted.=)

i'll not care anymore.she ain't affected so why me?
i can't control everything.so why do it now?
must learn to let go.but know when to grab the opportunities
that come by.
in comparison with many other ppl i'm quite uncouth,ill-mannered,immature
hot-tempered and vulgar.ok...these are bad habits i MUST change.
and recently ppl've been calling me ' HEN un-GENLTEMAN LEH '
fine.time to concentrate on studies.
chiao.

how can we express ourselves?
wat was once music to my ears has changed
to irrtation,fustration,ANGER.
wat i detested to become has slowly taken root in me.
i am no more whu i was.i was never acutally wat ppl tot i would be.
nope.
why do we care?why do we gif it a try even?
why waste time?
i guess its becuz fear.
fear of 'WHAT IF'
fear of 'reproach'

wat i never expected was this.
maybe shld haf anticipated this.
but 'you never know until u try' comes to mind.
fear of regrets.

ah well.
why keep yourself hidden under the shell?
why?
open up?
why not?
afraid of what?
everyone's mood and expressions are fact that
1. upset.
2. sad.
3. feeling SOMETHING.=)
so why hide it?
ok its understandable not everyone nids to noe wad ur feeling.
and being a god fren dsen't neccessarily mert me knowing EVERYTHING
abt u.but ppl showing concern,sometimes dun brush them away.
ok i'm not really endearing myself to alot of ppl.PARTICULARLY someone.
sometimes i want to ask whether ur irritated by me.
haha.REALLY.but why do i care anyway rite?
u dun seem to want to talk.thats fine by me.
yet i always struggle.ah fuck.
yeap.FUCK YOU.

ok...
today was a veyr relaxing day...
went to a luncheon at Goodwood Park Hotel fr
my 3rd uncle's wedding...good to see him happy...
glad for him cos he changed alot...haha....
dosen't smoke dosen't swear and takes life easy now...
he is LIVING the life I WANT to LIVE!...haha
it was great.probably can get to show some of my photos next time...
yeap...den after that went to play badminton...with a full stomach...haha.
so no study today.
great.exams are so close yet i'm still slacking!haha.
oh well.i think i nid to brush up on my PR skills.haha.
ok its getting late.gtg.bye.

i'm falling even more in love with YOU.

u can make my day.
and u can spoil my day.
thats the extent of influence i allow u to affect me.
so why can't this be easy?
why does it haf to be complicated?
WHY DOES IT HAF TO HURT!?

ok.tday COULD very much BE better.
i hope everything is well.
blogger is still not ok.
k.cya.tc peeps.

NOT in GOOD spirts today.
i had that urge to really confront him and smack his face.
but i noe where i stand.
i noe i cant stop him.but neither can i stop the feelings.
wat a time it has come to take me.
he himself noes how i feel abt her yet...
it was probably unwittinly de bah...
my BEST fren.
FUCK YOU.

finally blogger fxed its problem...
FINALLY.
today was ok.
i donte really noe wat to say everytime i come here
and blog.
wat i tot abt in the day...kinda like just dun
register when i come here.
its a blank when want to blog.
maybe cant contnue this relatinshp with the blog.
haha.wat nonsense.
oh well.its getting late.
i'll try my best to imput my feelings next time.
bye.

pissed...

ok wat a day huh?haha
it was fun!but kinda boring after awhile the rides...haha...
alright so i came home early...sorry for being party pooper...
very tired...hangover frm yesterday...
yeap...came home and continued my relatinship with my computer...
never ending.........

something stinks...and my face is in pain...argh...
i feel like killing my computer's internet lah...zzz
wad's wrong?

huh?

blogger's quite slow in fixng this problem...or isit just mine?
yesterday went to cut my hair...so song now cos the weather is
hot...not shorter hair its cooler and easier to maintain...haha...
went home den go and play badminton with relatves...super tired lah...
i think i over strain myself liao....my right hand super pain...
now just woke up my whole body here pain dere pain ah...
later meeting mac and co. to go wild wild wet...

must really study hard liao AH!...damnit this whole week never do self study at ALL!
sian ah...feel very guilty...and havent tell my parents but the results...
shit.gotta go.cya.tc.BYE.

ok blogger sucks big time...

mixed feelings.
wtf's happening?
hah.i'd wish i'd noe.
confused.
THANKS.you noe whu u are. =)

wat the hell?

wat the fcuk happened to blogger?
they seriously need some restructuring...
i dun even noe how i'm posting this...
these few daes has been good...
but i'm too lazy to typed it out...
its also been tiring...dunnoe why i keep slping in cls now..
kao eh...got back my results liao...
bot exactly good...more like BAD...
yeah i noe there al0t of ppl out there who got worse
den me...but this certainly dosen't really hit my expectations...
my god...i wonder...i really wonder where we're going to end up?
wat the hell man...aiyah fustrated by this stupid blogger liao lah...
BYE peeps.study hard.NITEZ

havent been updating daily due to my dads dominance on
the computer and screwing it up...NOW ITS MY TURN!
i just woke up no to long ago and my whole body is aching....haha
especially my legs!haha...yesterday when going home i tot my legs couldn't
hold out liao....tot of collapsing...haha
anyways had a great day yesterday!many games played and tons of laughter generated!
my stomach now got pains becuz yesterday i laughed to hard! courtesy of Leong Fusheng lolz!
yeap and n the evening i went to go meet jianfeng for his burfday celebration also...played sparklers at
the far end of the esplanade park.at the fitness corner there. den we also took ALOT of pics...
not to mention the unconventional de CAN...haha...yeap

this week has been alrite. erm...the prelims are over. yeah?
yeah my foot ah...that means 'O' s are nearer liao!
so wet blanket rite?haiz...
sian and i havent got my hair cut.oh great.shit.tml sure kenna caught.
must go and cut today.
and wat the hell am i doing so early OUT of BED!
damn after yesterday de day i should be back to slping now!
guys will upload fotos as son as possible.
tc BYE.

fcuked up aren't we?

i seriously nid to get a freaking hair-cut...
my brother said he tot i look good going botak.
i vehemently disagree.that would make my face totally YUAN!
den dun wan ah.anyway in the army sure get chance to cut botak liao.
so ok lor.wait till den.

yeap didn't blogged these few daes cos i've been busy.
YES.BUSY.and guess wad?i been BUSY STUDYING!...
although that is ' LING SHI BAO FO JIAO ' ...haha yeap.
i dun care.today the papers was alright. i might get a pass but it'll be a just pass.
or more likely then not i might get a fail.i'm not suprised.
these few daes frens haf been living on light slp...
so i guess there were alot of frayed nerves here and dere...so maybe
emotions got kinda out of hand?i 'm really not pointing fingers at ANYONE...
just stating an observation...even i felt i am one of them...
though i've been going to bed on time.haha. 11pm =)
it has really been a stressful week.most haf a glum look.
majority is laughing this off...but down inside i guess most of us
has the weight of expectations on us.
i believe everyone WANTS to do well.so stop putting urself off.
so stop saying " i think i'm going to fail" or " i can't make it " ...
come on...haf faith and belief in urself.

oversensitivity could ruin any relationship.
THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.

hm...

today.
my chem paper's was fine.
i could do.hope it would turn out fine.

i think blogger SEIOUSLY FCUKED UP YESTERDAY.
actually nt just blogger.FRIENDSTER SUCKS TO.so damn freaking slow.
dumb excuse for people to connect with one another.

yesterday i went out to celebrate 'MD-AUTUMN' with sy,her fren,her fren brother,sy's bro and susan.
that was after angeliune they all had canceled their outing after nt
alot of ppl confirm were going.
haha had fun yesterday night.did alot of spastic things that were too childish for us
yet no 12-yr old kid would play.haha.so it was an in-between.
yeap.den after that i went home tired.i tot i could fall asleep while bathing!
haha.exaggeration,but that was how tired was.

i tot i could run away frm you.but it turns out i wanted to
be close to u more then want to be away.i dunnoe.
i guess ur my adhesive.i get ATTRACTED to u.
though i want to get out of this sticky mess and concentrate on my studies.
yeah well.lets leave this chapter unwritten,open,and more subtle to changes.

today after the exam i went home.just my dumb luck that it just had to rain
when i just got out of the sch.WTF? somebody up there against me?
as i move along the rain got progressively heavy.just sick lah.
anyway i caught my bus just in time.however it just so happens
that buses haf to turn their air-con to the lowest temp.
when the weather out there is cool enuff. like my dad says: 'These people got SHIT in their brains.'
argh.i slept for an hour after i got home.f course i bathed first lah.DUH. haha.
yeap den i went to CGH to get my yearly check-up on my leg.
got there 1 hour b4 my appointment time, hoping i could see the doc and be done with it and come
home to study for my physics.but i turns out NoOoOoOoOoOoOo...
i had to wait 1 and a half hours b4 i could see the doc.after see the doc for no more den 10 mins,
i haf to sit for another 15 mins to pay.talk abt efficientcy.BITCH.
patience is a virtue.well there is only so much ur patience can take.
esp when ur freezing ur ass off, u haf no book to study for ur next paper
and u just dun like the person infront of u.
it just so happens that the guy infront of me is seeing my doc.
and he is taking an extremely long time.he kept asking questions.ask and ask and ask.
so sickening.so i tot he just did it to irritate me.BUT THEN ,
i heard ' INJECTION ' and i knew why he asked so much shit question.
HE WAS SCARED!!! haha i was outside the consultation room.
he was inside moaning and screaming!not that i'm a sadist that rejoice
in other people's suffering.BUT the way he was SCREAMING inside
just made me think was he a wuss or wad?
ok i didn't see the needle so i dunnoe if it was an epidemic neddle.
even my mum beside me whisppered in my ear: 'shi nan de ah? aiyoh nan de ye zhe yang han '
ok i think i shall not talk abt that man anymore.

yeap.so that sums up my day.nid any clarifications on my illness come look for me someday
i MIGHT tell ya. ;)
take care guys.study hard.its the last mile.lets go all the way and gif ur best shot!
BYE!

oooooooook...
yesterday had gone out to study my chemistry.
OMG DOES MY CHEM SUCK SHIT OR WHAT?!
cant do simple stuff...somemore tml written paper...jialat.
so bo pian no slacking today.still haf to go through the stuffs.

had a long talk with my dad during dinner.
we talked abt the growing industres in singapore.he said he thinks its
the medical,which the whole world is moving to, and sercurity.
ok.so lets talk abt sercurity.
ths sercurity issue was only brought into focus by the recent
terrorist attacks.now most schs haf installed CCTv cameras on sidegates
and haf hired sercurity personnel to man the main gates.
certainly this has created jobs for the people.
HOWEVER my dad argues that these sercurity officers are slackers.
as i can testify to that.in our sch the guys sit there.
my father said f anyone would haf wanted to bomb the sch they could haf done it easily.

so he said if the ministry could introduce something like a gantry(try thinking ERP)...
we haf our ez-link cards...so the gantry gates just scan our cards as we walk into the sch.teachers could be given the same thing.a pass the gantry recognises.this gantry would den register ur info of wat tme u came into sch.if ur late den the student leaders would go hand u detention cards.
if an unauthorised person enters the sch the OM would be notified.
of curse this is just a suggestoin my dad has lah.den the student leaders dun haf to
come so early to sch and do that much duty.
and of course can still retain the guards lah.
but the cst of maintaining something like a gantry is much cheaper
den paying the wages of a guard over a year.

after saying so much asked my dad to go write to the fourum lah in The Strait Times.
he said somethings that i dun think shld be said here.the gov might SUE. =)
i tot it was a plausible idea so decided to post it here.
pst ur comments at my tagbard.CONSTRUCTIVE ONES!...haha

yeap.den yesterday night also watched ' The Mexican' ...
NICE SHOW. of course made better by the beautiful cast of brad pitt and julia roberts.
james gandolfini was also a great supporting actor.
yeap.so that sums up yesterday.
and today i haf to chiong my chem and A maths.
so cya peeps.take care.BYE!.study hard. =)

i'm so screwed...

oooooooook...
yesterday had gone out to study my chemistry.
OMG DOES MY CHEM SUCK SHIT OR WHAT?!
cant do simple stuff...somemore tml written paper...jialat.
so bo pian no slacking today.still haf to go through the stuffs.

had a long talk with my dad during dinner.
we talked abt the growing industres in singapore.he said he thinks its
the medical,which the whole world is moving to, and sercurity.
ok.so lets talk abt sercurity.
ths sercurity issue was only brought into focus by the recent
terrorist attacks.now most schs haf installed CCTv cameras on sidegates
and haf hired sercurity personnel to man the main gates.
certainly this has created jobs for the people.
HOWEVER my dad argues that these sercurity officers are slackers.
as i can testify to that.in our sch the guys sit there.
my father said f anyone would haf wanted to bomb the sch they could haf done it easily.

so he said if the ministry could introduce something like a gantry(try thinking ERP)...
we haf our ez-link cards...so the gantry gates just scan our cards as we walk into the sch.teachers could be given the same thing.a pass the gantry recognises.this gantry would den register ur info of wat tme u came into sch.if ur late den the student leaders would go hand u detention cards.
if an unauthorised person enters the sch the OM would be notified.
of curse this is just a suggestoin my dad has lah.den the student leaders dun haf to
come so early to sch and do that much duty.
and of course can still retain the guards lah.
but the cst of maintaining something like a gantry is much cheaper
den paying the wages of a guard over a year.

after saying so much asked my dad to go write to the fourum lah in The Strait Times.
he said somethings that i dun think shld be said here.the gov might SUE. =)
i tot it was a plausible idea so decided to post it here.
pst ur comments at my tagbard.CONSTRUCTIVE ONES!...haha

yeap.den yesterday night also watched ' The Mexican' ...
NICE SHOW. of course made better by the beautiful cast of brad pitt and julia roberts.
james gandolfini was also a great supporting actor.
yeap.so that sums up yesterday.
and today i haf to chiong my chem and A maths.
so cya peeps.take care.BYE!.study hard. =)

grow up...

wad is LOVE?
LOVE : 1.warm liking or affection for a person, affectionate devtion ; 2. sexual devtion or passion ; 3.GOD's benevolence twards mankind ; 4. strong liking for a thing
mostly for most of us its the first 1,2 and 3
i doubt YOU can be GOD...

today was a much better day for me...
i totally didn't study for my chinese...
its the first time i could not finish my chinese compo on time...becuz normally i dun haf much to wrte abt in exams.
although thats nothing to be happy abt...
yeap.i'm trying to make this work out...
i'm no longer going to get myself drawn towards this mess i had created for myself...
i'm not leaving it for someone to clean it up for me.i nid to do this myself or i will never learn.
i guess i nid to mature in this area otherwse i might just end up like this everytime.

we are not super-humans.though some haf shone that almost GOD-LIKE ability.
so i guess when things are out of control, dun try to right it.just live with it.
in the first place why rock the boat when nothing is wrong?
u cant stop the waves from hitting it though can u?
so ride it out and there will always be a sun behind that BLACK STORM.

THIS ISN'T ABOUT THE DESTINATION.
ITS ABOUT THE JOURNEY AND WHAT
YOU HAVE GAINED FROM IT.

there is still much to live for.
dun do that.dun even think abt it.PLEASE.
u haf still a bright future.u only think life sucks now is becuz
u cant get the perfect solution.WELL THERE IS NO PERFECT SOLUTION IN LIFE.
its all abt improvising along the way and adaptation.its also abt learning.
to want to take ur own life.SURE IT TAKES ALOT OF COURAGE.
only an INSANE person would stare down the barrel of a gun and still shoot his brains
out...
only an INSANE person would look down at the ground many storeys up a building
AND STILL WANT to jump down.
those people just cant see any solutins to their problems and so they tot taking their own life is the best option.

and yet i think it takes much more courage to live the shit life u haf now rather den taking a
much more cowardly route of suicide.YES.SUICIDE IS C-O-W-A-R-D-L-Y.
now if u really are keen on taking ur own life...
before u do ur stunt pls reflect on the GOOD things abt UR LIFE...MEMORIES u felt HAPPY abt...
things that u WOULDN'T want to exchange ANYTHING for...think abt ur FAMILY...
your FRIENDS...and then think abt urself...wuld it be worthwhile join ur ancestors so soon?
if the answer is yes den say hello to them for me...but if the answer is no pls get that notion out of ur head.
if u haf any problems tok to someone.preferably someone u feel comfortable with.
blood is MUCH MUCH thicker then water.so try talking to ur family.parents definitely.
ur their child.no parent would want their child to die.
if its better for u that way "talk" to GOD.
HE whu is almighty might make u change ur mind abt seeing him that soon. =)

ok enuff if this mumbo jumbo.now if u really want to de i would advise u NOT to follow wat i haf just blogged.
seek parental guidiance.or help from someone ur comfortable with.
talk it out.it makes u feel better then keeping it bottled up.

in case anyone wonders , i'm not a catholic, christian, muslim, bhuddist.
but its a funny thing i think of a GOD.probably becuz i was taught in two
catholic institutions.yeap so maybe...and for those whu wonder still
nope i'm not converting neither am i preaching.
just stating wat i want.thanks for ur unwavering attention.
i bid u a peaceful night in bed. =)
good nites.

in a fcuking dilema...why must it be off all people?
everyday...EVERY-SINGLE-FCUKING-DAY...it really eats me up inside...
if there is an inside at all...FUCK YOU!
fcuking pangs of jealousy...i want you all to go away...
u, my 'BROTHER'....i think i shld stay away frm you...
and you,the apple in my eyes,the cream of the crop,the the classy lady in my mind,
i think i shall stay away frm you too...

i nid a break from all of these...i just want to let it all cool...
its so time consuming so irritating...
i just always think its me over-reacting...being too fcuking sensitve...
all these feelings even though SHE'S not MINE!!!
how shit is that?
every small thing and action ur show to each other just
gives another reason for my brain to go into overdrive...
i really cant stand it anymore...
i never voice my ill-feelings much to anyone mainly
becuz i guess it just happens...
u cant stop it wth ur will...i'm just being willful...
u cant stop them tokking to each other u cant stop them frm playng together
just because of ur sensitivity...who are you?cos in the end even if i did say out anything
i guess nothing would be solved.on the contrary i think that more problems will
be created.and i dun want to lose friendship to either of them.
running may not be the best of options.but i think it will do for now.
i just keep away whenever it happens.

today i would like to appologse to anyone who felt irritated by me.
just over-enthusiastic.today's paper was good i guess.it was a lso a fine
day until my incontrolable feelings took over.
inidtogoawaynow.

=(

a torrent of emotions flooding
threatening to overflow...
what haf i done to deserve this?
i only haf myself to blame...
i'm too intelectually dumb to u...
i just feel inferior to other ppl...
haha...u think its all well and happy on the inside?

today had sci prac and geog paper...
hm i really wonder abt the practcal...
but i think i can do OK for the geog paper lah...
den later go and study...hm...

i pray for YOU.

oh yeh...

i've got a very bad feeling abt the whole exam...
how do i noe? GUYS INTUITION guess! haha!...but on a serious note...
i guess myself ain't going to do well...judging on how i struggled to write today...
it kinda just sums up the future yeah?but i wun gif up without a fight...
WE ALL WON'T RIGHT?!

so after the EL papers today went to green alone to study
my geog...did mostly physical geog...i find that actually studying alone
can make me do more stuff then say wth many people arund?
but i guess its an excuse...its just ur commitment and determination...
yeap so i stayed at green studying alone frm 2-6...a fantastic achievment
i feel for myself becuz hardly can sit at one spot for hardly an hour
i want to thank my mum, my dad, my brther, my sister and all those FAN WHICH SUPPORTED ME!!
haha laming now...but it was a BLACK DAY lah...rain and rain...
hm anyways my mind now s rejuvinated mainly becuz of...FOOD!
yes FOOD!i simply LURVE FOOD! but now i'm so full i feel like slping...
counter-productive.=( haha. in anycase.take care peeps.study hard.
NITEZ. peace be with you. DO OR DO NOT THERE IS NO TRY!!!

thanks!

THANKS ROSSLINA FOR HELPING ME WITH THE SONGS!!!=)

wad a day huh!?

today went out to TM with bloops to study.n more than an hour has
passed that we were on out feet walking around TM.waited for her fren.
den we went to expo expecting to fnd some VERY nice and VERY cheap
NIKE.ADIDDAS.stuff lah...but in the end is SPORTSLINIK warehouse sale.
=(.the things there were...lets put it this way:they weren't wat i expected.
haha.den we deceided to go to parco bugis since bloops said got sale in almost
all the shops.actually i think its ALL!the first thing after alighting at bugis is eat.
bloops fren, cheryl, VERY HUNGRY.so we ate our dinners.den eat le go walk walk parco.
took neo-prints.haha den walk somemore.den fnally set off for home.cheryl wasn't full!
so she bought some stuff to eat.but she go home still haf to eat dinner somemore!
haha.my legs are now damn tired lah.very ' SUAN '.yeap.AND I'M ALSO VERY HUNGRY!
there's a saying that : 'Never deprived a man from his food or thou shall hath no fury!'
actually i just made that up!...haha.lame.but my stomachs growling.=(
in anycase thanks bloop for a great day.and nice knowing u cheryl.=)

and to u whu might occasionally come by.
tough it out abit more lah.dun go that path pls.
there's still a long way to go.hm 'm not u so i wun
noe wads going thru u.but if u nid a listening ear...=)

new skin...new beginng?

changed skin...hm...looks nice the drawing
hm anyways my holidays are wasted.period.
hah.

i wonder wads happening?

i really wonder wads happening....
i guess the fault mostly could be found within me...
i'm drifting around...no aim...some felt i'm just there
for the fun...and once its gone i left...
nid to get my priorties rite...it ain't that simple anymore...

hm...today's exams were FUCKED up...
but in anycase...just to see the standard...
but den again...next week is the prelims...how to see?
maths was a total disgrace...i meant for me lah...
ss was a freaking farce...aiyoh but we dun noe until
like after our prelims...wadeva lah...

dun be guilty...wo fan xing le...
my mouth is BIG...haha...it goes both ways?jkjk
yeap...didn't get the opportunity to tell ya today...so
i just said it here.
anyways.tc peeps.study hard for prelims.tc.BYE.

hm...

i think i nid to learn to kip my BIG FAT MOUTH SHUT!

PHOTOS!

photos are just memories that are printed on paper...
haha that was crap...
anyways was looking through my folders when i chance upon my
picture folders...looking through all those brought a big smile
to my face...yeap...signed up to a host site to host the pics.

http://memoryfailure.mypicgallery.com/

yeap...so go visit there yeah?
also ANYONE WITH PICTURES OF EVENTS THAT U AND I HAF GONE TO
PLS SEND THEM ME SO I CAN HOST THEM!THANKS!=)

my bro's back frm the states...nope he din go there for studies...
just to open a person's horizons...which is wat i want to do probably
when i haf the money...living in singapore is like a frog livin within a well...
yeap...and one thing good is...HE FIXED THE INTERNET PROB IN THE COMPUTER!
haha yeap so here i am using the computer!
i just woke up lah...so forgive my retardedness...minds a bit groggy...
hm...not much happenings this few daes...
just that prelims are next monday...haha and i ain't that in a hurry...
i'm taking my life easy...sometimes too easy...thats my attitude now...
yeap...
wo ye fa xian dao wo de pi qi hen bao zao...
taking the brunt of it is mostly my mum...though whu nags constantly...
with me at the centre of the concern wo you shi jue de tah HAO FANNNN!!!!
and so in displeasure...i gif her alot of attitude...even raised my voice...
damn den after that i feel damn guilty...its not i dun lurve her...its just like
URGH!...its getting frequent now and my dad has pulled me aside to tok to me
abt this...i can see my mum is really hurt by my actions to her...and yet...haiz...
must curb my temper huh...irritation on the rise...maybe i shld just play more sports...
fustrations can just leak out this way...

hm it seems nth is wrong...is just me being paranoid
but as i noe nthing could come out frm this...
i really do like u...but i'm realistic enuff to noe...
but currently i'll just stick to this feeling...=)

tc peeps.bye.

ok...

i can live without my computer...or so it seemed...haha
now at zhi kang house using the computer...yeap thanks bud! =)
hm...an ending for one of my most important chapters in my life
is drawing to a closure.SOON.yeap...prelims in a weeks time.
'O' lvls in a month or so...hm...it all boils down to these few months days and weeks..
hate the feeling of the entire path of ur life bearing down on the
STUPID piece of certificate...my future will be determinded in the
next few weeks months days...we talk abt stress now...i wonder how we
cope with the workload in the future if we're working...

life's been good to me this few days...no actually its i haf done things
to make my life feel good these few days...though studies wise...
hm nid extreme buck up in that area...yeap..
had much fun the past few daes...but also did quite some work also..
mainly maths...its just like all maths now...my other subs..hm...
especially science...

am i losing perspective?
is something happening?
am i changing?for the better or for the worse?
isit all over?
wads wrong?
i wonder?
could u say something?
could it be anything like it was previously?

i recently saw the whole of the ' wake me up when september ends '
MTV...nice...all the band member's seem old though...yeah well...
i think i better go liao...
so cya guys again.tc.STUDY REALLY HARD GUYS!
we're not that far away...just a bit more effort.yeap.bye.

haha?

here i am once again...
and nope my computer ain't fixed...
just me using my sister's computer again...
how wonderful...i asked if she could unlock my
bro's computer for me...she said its lock because the main
thing is not t0 let u use... i was like -_-" ...can...
i just want to use the internet and messenger only...
wat the fuck...wish my computer would be back to itself SOON...

life's pretty mundane and routine...
its all studying now for everybody...
today after sch went to watch royston and co. perform...
hm den after that went to eat a pizza hut...yeap den came
home with a full stomach struggling to fill the dinner my
mum had prepared...i think i'm getting fatter...shit

i want to go out this WEDNESDAY!!!damn if only to window shop...
haizz...sian..how i wish exams wouldn't be so important...haha
wat a childish thought...anyways.gtg.cya peeps.bye.

hm...

my brother ask my sister to change the password of his computer...=(
now i'm using my sister de computer..haiz...when can my OWN
computer start working again?that computer is a PIECE
of SHIT!...hm...these few daes...haf been better...
finally get some fresh air that i myself haf restricted
myself frm taking in...enjoying the days now rather letting
the thoughts take over.
till den.i'll update if i can find the opportunity.
my bor's coming back on the 8th or 9th of sep.SHIT.
anyways.tc peeps.bye.

hm...

these past few daes haf been struggling with THE GREEN THING!
yeap...so excuse me my friends if i was giving u the attitude...
everybody has their off daes....so forgive me. =)

hm...been doing some thinking...
here i am torturing myself...wrinkling my heart of pain...
but WHY SHOULD I when there u are continuing ur life...
WHY SHOULD I GIF UP EVERYTHING...while u enjoy everything...
no doubt it still kills me when u talk to him...
and no doubt i might haf a stinko attitude when that happens...
but then it would pass...I'M SURE IT WOULD...
just like today!

hm sch sarks lah...until like after sch...
was in a much better mood to crap with ppl...
yeap would like to say THANKS TO GF!!!yeaps
thanks for ur words and concern.LOVE YA!
yeap and to ppl wondering abt my black mood...
i should be myself the next few daes le bah...haha
do u miss my craps?haha jkjk...
oh yea! tml got PE!...wheee hope can plae captain ball again!
CYA PEEPS TC.BYE

wat a day huh...

today...my mood matches the colours of the night...
and yes u guessed it...its ALL abt her and my friend!
woohoo...and yes its just me being over sensitive...
but i cant drop that niggling feeling...like i said yesterdae
its deja vu...a feeling of ' HEY i seem to haf experienced this before...'
hm it will pass will it? how long would my mind torture me?
everyday...hardly talk in cls...not that it mattered last time...
but now...haha...everytime she talks to someone else...
my gut just squeezes itself together...the feeling that she hardly talks
to u now...and everyday its dere and i always just haf to act like
it dosen't affect me...i just want to slp it all away...or maybe for the time being...
but running away from problems...dose it solve it?
maybe time might hold the key...but how long would it take?
no one can comprehend it...

everytime i see her...a sense of helplessness envelopes me...
tat i'm such a loser yeah?i can't seem to do anything right...
that whu am i to go for her?that whu am i to be with her...
i dun care wad ppl say abt me now...
pls by all means kill me behind my back...
but i dun care...this is how i feel...thats what a blog is for...
to express ur FEELINGS! today was a fucked up day...i hate to go
tuition...but no choice still haf to go...lift in my block broke down..
fuck you.and you.and you.

just great.

hm an internal war has gone on for a very long time...

hm how?can i shake of that feeling?this is like deja vu...
this kinda scene keeps repeating.
i am so sick of this....really sick to the core...
i dun understand certain stuff sometimes...and maybe i never will
life is so down...i can even get peace at home...
te only thing i like at home is my computer,my bro's computer(for the time being)
and the guitar...although i only noe how to play one verse...
but it kinda just lets me go...oh and not to forget my BED =)

and frens can only go so far rite?or could they go all the way with u?
haha the only true frens u can ever find
are not the ones that stuck with u through the good times...
but are the ones that were with u through the bad times...
got it frm somewhere...cant remember where liao...my studies...down the drain man...
my love for u?haha priceless...haha
but haha...its either me getting super sensitive i guess...
hm can someone haf a long talk with me?haha...
1.appointments are only available during the weekends.
2.calls must be made b4 hand and agreed on the spot.
3.no fee would be paid for the consultation periods...
haha ignore my stupid stuff...
hm its getting late...got to go and catch some forty winks.
bye peeps and tc.chiao

things are bad enuff...

hm lazy to update bah...or also haf no mood to
update this few daes...hm...lets see...
todae went to tuition in the morning...only den did
i noe how low my A maths standard is...sian...
den later went to mit eliza and susan for lunch
went to some place at AMK central...called
'SUMO HOUSE' of somethink like dat...judging by the name can guess
it sells jap food bah...haha...hm den after that went home...
slept all the wat home...got down the bus groggy and almost
walked into a wall...haha...go home...did a bit of maths...
den tried to study for social studies...but the addiction of computer got
the better of me...haha...plaed till evening...den went out for dinner...
A.L.O.N.E. boo!
haha something dumb happen lah...
as i was paying for my food the guy said something like
' mei you di fang chi le '...den i like look around den saw some
tables were empty...den i reply ' er hai you ah.. '
haha den i lao diao when the guy say... ' wo bu shi zai gen ni shou hua '...
it was like so embarrassing lah...den after dinner went to a nearby comic
book rental store and rent some comics to read....yeap then came home.

how i wish i stayed in hougang...so that i can contact friends easily...
easy meet up...sian...haha...so bored...
well its almost THREE MONTHS LIAO...shld i be forgetting liao?
haha...well truth to be told...nope she still occupies the large dense brain
of mine most of the time...

great now my mum noes i use my bro de computer....
I WISH SHE WOULD FUCKING SHUT THE FUCK UP MAN!!!!
friggin irritated...den she's going to tell my dad...and later my bro...
and they all going to lecture me again...y cant they fucking fuck their own
business lah...
it seems ironic that i hardly tok to my parents now...
i cant stand having a conversation with my parents...
in the past i would forever crave for their attention...
but the few yrs that pass changed me alot...so irritated now...
wadeva lah...gtg.tc and nites.

damnit

the computer has taken the best time to break down...
i'm still using my bro's com secretly...damnit...
sch was boring...but we finally had PE liao...woo!
haha den after sch played soccer...play till sibei song!
so now my legs are like damn tired lah...and some ppl
say after my came they say i grow darker?...hahaha
must be becuz my face was flushed with blood after an hour
playing under the sun...hm after that i REALLY STINK...
wow...haha...den went home...found that the ppl 12 stories below
my flat were burning incense paper...and the heat,ashes and smell
were all floating up to my room...so i was like never open up my room
de window...haiyo...

tml going to STUDY!anyways...tc nites ppl.bye.

oh wow...

todae is thursday...
england lost 1-4 to denmark....haha suckers...
er...todae was fine...ok...after sch listened to
fusheng,yvvone sim,roy and evelyn practice their
song for teacher's day celebration...
hm den after that go to pungool plaza eat with angeline
evelyn geraldine roy and jianfeng...den came home...
overslept my stop...damn gotta cut down on dozing on the bus...
but at least it keeps my mind frm thinking bout stupid stuff...

hm my own computer de internet network down...
now haf to secretly use my bro de computer...
hm received a NS enlistment brochure...so fast liao ah...
haha...now haf to seriously think abt wat i'm going to do the next 5
yrs le...

still practicing my guitar strumming...haha...
i'm supposed to be learning drums...but oh well...
so nice to be able to plae a musical instrument...

AH!!!!
prelims coming...am i'm still like slacking...wah seh...
haizz...got to go.tc peeps.bye.chiao.

hm...

a one day break...does that fulfill a 'i dun feel like bloggin this few daes ' sentence?
haha...this 'few' days haf been thinking over stuff..haha
over wat i tot myself...over wat frens haf said...over my future
correct me if i'm wrong...most of us now are faced with an uncertain future...
i made a decision of going to the poly...would that bode well for my future?
or would the jc route be a better choice?...life is an adventure...
and everytime we take a step into the unknown we learn new stuff...
we might fall down along the way becuz of unforseen or other incidents...
but as we get up we learn somehow or other...whether u noe it or not...

friendships...some of the happiest and saddest memories come frm here...

we are everything with it and nothing without it

i wonder would we all still be close like we were when we graduate?

we all still be in contact?if we meet somewhere someday on some street

and see one of them...would u go up and say hi or just walk away...

would the innocence of todae dictate the path of the future?

haha crapping...

i guess there's a green monster in all of us...haha...

there no denying the fact that i'm more affected by it...more often then not...

she dosen't really come up and talk anymore...

she tends to talk to n questiong my more interesting guy buddy...

how funny u can hate ur fren for one minute for tokking to her

and lose that feeling immediately when he is not...

haha not the first time i'm saying this...

but i think i nid to change this kinda thinking yah...

but as i say again...haha i'm largely more sensitive guy when it comes

to matters of the heart...haha...sounds gay but its true...

i dun cry...i wun cry...but it tends to kill ur mood for the day...

in anycase the exams are coming we shant be thinking abt this...

prelims aint that far away...' O ' s not laggin far behind

got to study study study!

its getting late.gtg.tc peeps=)

sorry.

sorry guys...for making ur wait.
sorry guys...for making ur worried.
very sorry. =(

i dun feel....

i dun feel rite...
neither do i feel like blogging this few daes...
my chinese results ain't good...but not that jialat
as i had feared...but still...quite a disappointment lah...
hm...this few daes...i dunnoe...like kinda devoid of emotions lah...
i feel this things....yet they all seem far away and foreign...

i dun want to blog...dun haf the feeling this few daes...
haha must blog also nid ling gan wan...
aiyah...i cant be bothered already.
todae my sis's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY my beloved sister! =)

gtg tc peeps.bye.

alrite.

oh yeah.todae had physics test...seems easy enuff...
but then again u wun noe if u can pass anot...
hm den got back A maths test paper...
was suprised i could get a decent mark...haha
hm den had 'O' lvl English oral after sch...
was nervous really...stumbled over a few words...
but i think it was alrite lah...hm den went to
haf late lunch with angeline and co. ...
den came home...yup thats abt it...
good luck to the people taking their exams tml...
and i'll pray hard for my own chinese results...
tc peeps.bye.

uh huh...

oh yeah! three cheers for the end of NATIONAL DAY!
no more RUI-EN/TAUFIK mtvs ANYWHERE!...
not that i dun like them...but it's really irksome...

todae went to meet jf angeline and claud for lunch...
went to kovan de that express...wah seh....quite ex sia...
rack up a bill near $50...wah seh...
haha...den went to zhikang house to do
S.S. project...haha never complete...cos we dun haf our notes or txbks with us!
haha so lao diao rite...so in the end we ended up laughing over
one guys blog...haha his language is so beng!...
http://www.rockson.blogspot.com/

haha some may find it expletive...but i found it funny...haha
alot of vulgar language...but its not uncommon...
haha anyways tml is English oral...with two tests....wah jialat
haiz...i wish everyone,including myself, good luck!
haa thats all.tc peeps.bye.

oh great...

well well....todae is NATIONAL DAY!!!
woo hoo?...40 yrs of independence huh...
well wat a dae huh...

anyways...was up for tuition in the morning...
was late...overslept...and my tuition teacher saw it right to
call home...after i left...and just so happened my dad picked up
the damned phone...in anycase...i shouldn't be late...
and also i nid to say sorry to hong han and mark...
cos i agreed to go to upper court...this morning...
but i forgot i had tuition this morning...clash...
so sorry should haf told you guys...

FRIENDSTER IS DUMB!
SOMEONE SHOULD WRITE TO THEM AND
COMPLAIN!!!!

haha...ok gtg tc peeps.bye.

alrite....dunnoe why but my computer
doesn't haf internet...just great...now i haf to use my bro's
com secretly...and it dosen't haf the stuff i want...
...wad a dumb computer...

anyways...todae went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory after
the celebrations on sch....it was ALRITE...though the story is interesting...
hm...shant say anymore...too pissed off with my computer...
tc peeps.bye

hm...

todae was fun...
much like yesterdae...but more opportunities in
the sun...haha...damn teacher ahd to release me late
haiyo...otherwise i might be burnt like them...
haha had fun on the beach...the food was good too...haha
hm...the mood was considerably better today...
definitely...maybe also due to the surroundings...
hm...i hope the rest of the week takes on the hope of todae...
an neva make it fall into the depths of history...

alrite guys time to slp...tired...chiao tc.=)

=)

happy birthday claudia!
hm just came back...todae when went out
with them damn high...haha...
but in sch i was quite moody...

again pent up feelings inside...
nobody noes...nobody cares...
not that i expect anything...for everyone's busy...
and cooped up with their own problems...
but sometimes i just really want to tok to her....
really just make her laugh and smile...
she dosen't seem to come to tok to me anymore...
not like it affects her...
this is just irritating...i want u by my side...
and yet i dun want u near me...
how is that so?
sometimes being the nice polite guy wun get u noticed...
u haf to take the initiative....or just stand out...
a conversation with u would really cheer me up...
and yet u dun always seem forthcoming
and i'm too cowardly to go up and tok...
u seem to be quite bored when u tok to me...
and sometimes i dun blame on u...
i really want to make u smile and be the happiest person on Earth...
and yet...i noe for u to be happy...i'm not the one...
i just want u to be happy....i only want to remember the happy
memories...and to forget the past week or so...

if after reading tis and u seem to noe whu u are
and start avoiding me...
i really wun blame u...but i'll think i'll cope and move on with life...
argh fuck it...i want out out OUT!

L O V E - A Journey

Why hold someone back... when u know u don't love them...Why keep them to yourself... when u know you won't wanna have them? Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions...

A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people.

Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.

Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time.That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved. Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have.And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle,wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate,nurturing and lasts a long time. The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us,takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.

Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop. Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect him/her for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better. The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.

"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to net, but easy to break." Every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense! feeling of falling in love? I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"... but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you. There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other. But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it,you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love. It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey = for your soul mate.

ARE YOU REALLY IN LOVE? ASK YOURSELF! Is this true love? Do I really love him/her? Or izzit just another infatuation? R U willing to give? Even though you may not get back the same amount you gave? R U cheating yourself? Thinking that you really love him/her and not just taking him/her as a substitute for your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?

Friends, let today be the day....... you truly understand love....... If after reading this and answering all the questions,you are very sure that you love him/her,tell him/her that. Let him/her know how much you love him/her and that you are willing to take the risks of being hurt by him/her in the course of the development of your relationship with him/her. This is a love that's sacrificial, R U ready for it? If you accept someone's philosophy that is simply their rationalisation to justify their failure, you accept their failures!"

**The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.** If you think something will make you happy, go for it. **Remember that we pass this way only once.**

YoU cAn'T mAkE sOmEoNe LoVe YoU, aLl YoU cAn Do Is Be SoMeOnE wHo CaN bE lOvEd, ThE rEsT iS uP tO tHe PeRsOn To ReAlIzE yOuR wOrTh~


hm something i found while sorting my rubbish in my computer...
sorry if its abit long...i mean very!...
enjoy.

alrite...

so here how's life...

i think i'm going to explode already...
so many things bottled-up...
how long can i keep up this facade of smiles,big laughs
i'm on the verge of givin up everyhting rite now...
patience has worn thin,like i believe she never meant a'thing...
haf not being myself these few daes...
but since when haf i been myself?
u were always on my mind...
the pangs of jealousy...the monster within
strugglin with its leash...the love-hate feelings...
never haf my emotional self gone through that much...
i wonder wat has happened now?
is it me avoiding or haf u been avoiding?
havent been tokking to u much...not that u cared...nor i tried...

or then again...haf i been that
oh-too-sensitive-guy that i never wanted to be...
i'm now so reclusive these daes...wats happening?
the answer could only be found within myself huh...
maybe sometime off would do...i want to just go away for awhile...
hm...but wat is away...where is it?
it never seems like that far...yet it dosen't seem near either...
well the thing still boils down to her...haha...
argh...i'm taking things to seriously...but yet my mum
saes i cant hasten my actions even if my life depended on it...
ah wadeva...this week has already spiralled down down down...
i just need sometime alone...or maybe a good long chat with anyone...
haha...life's currently down...but i'll try my best to stand back up.
ON MY OWN.LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS DONE SO.

argh just fcuk off my hated feelings...
anyways tc peeps.two ppl de birthdae coming rite up tml.
and tml is the first day of the lunar 7th month.wonderful.

hm...

today was alrite...
was late...though i noe shoudn't haf been...
but i choose to lie in bed...so i cant
really blame my alarm clock...
sch was ok...fun at best bah...thank god
for zhi kang...haha entertain me the whole dae...
haha thanks...great to haf a partner like you...
er guys dun get the wronh idea...i'm not gay he just
sits beside me in class...=)
and thanks angeline for trying to cheer me up
this pass few daes...yup...but u dun haf to go out of ur way really...=)
hm...i'm still taking life easy at sch and at home...
i think i will onli work when someone
takes me by gunpoint then i will study de...
haha...and in anycase i cant wait to plae soccer
or at least just freaking workout...
just plae any sports...so cooped up these few daes...
i want to let it all out...some football or something that
takes alot of strength that saps u mentally or physically....
that would be nice...hm anyways getting late gotta
go and study phy...TEST tml!...
so tc peeps.chiao!

fuck u...

not exactly in the best of moods now...
hm...not planning to explain much...hopes
tml would improve...
tc peeps.bye.

oh well...

hell...todae sucked...SUCKED!
hm at least i knoe i passed my maths...
failed my chem practical...
somehow had a dispute with somethings
i seriously dun understand happened in the first place...
hm wad else...i flared up again...
i got a bruise on my leg...ow...
i'm still not studying...

oh wadeva...cant be bothered anymore...not in
the mood now...tc peeps.bye

oooh...

alrite....todae was wasted...haha
in the morning stone infront of computer...
den afternoon went out to The School Of Rock...
sounds cool huh....but it ain't no sch...
the venue just suck in the first place...
and no crowd control also...wah kao...
but the bands were nice...if not just alrite...haha...
but the music they plaed were original...great!
but we mostly cant see...which sucks...cos we were all too short except
nick...ross was like jumping around...haha...mac was
perspiring like she dunnid water like dat...eliza can see only parts of the show...
i was like super tired...i also cannot see most of the band ppl...
the crowd infront were tall...some fuckers also put up banners...
though later i bet their hands must be tired so neva put up liao...
hm...nick was enjoying the view up there...haha...lorraine looked confused...
haha all in all the gig aint that great just like the music onli...

hm...anyways...read one of my frns blog...
i also think lah...sometimes we might haf gone overboard...
and i really dun blame u for questioning urself like dat...
sometimes i dunnid ppl to ask me wo jiu zhi zi condem myself liao...
haha...ppl work in funny ways...we all do...thats wad makes us
unique in each and everyother way...

has it ever occured to
YOU that YOU dun haf to make drastic or dramtic things to let
PPL noe that ur there...or YOU CARE...it all comes with the meanings
that lie under ur actions...and the sinceirity...
the smallest things u do is more than enuff to make
our memories last a lifetime...or maybe till i'm senile...

and YOU stop questioning and reproaching urself...
YOU are whu YOU are...neva question that...
whu ever said u were eek?!...maybe i haf....but it was in jest...
but i think sometimes we haf gone too far...or neva
spare ur a tot for u...well...if anyone is for HER...ur certainly
good enuff for HER...dun let doubt kill ur hopes...
but neither should u get hopes to high...alrite...i think
its contridicting...

alrite its back to me...
are u ppl sick of me already?...haha...
i ertainly am sick of myself...
i've lead a pitiful existence in my sch...
i've fucked up...this is the last year....and yet
i haf neva did anything to make my parents proud...
i neva got first in anything...though that dun always matter...
i onli got my parents more worried...
and sometimes the problmes i encounter are enuff to
haunt me for the rest of my life...mostly the probs are self-caused...
haha...todae is such a long post huh...haha todae my fingers feel nimble...

a fren gaf me a quotes which i find were mostly true...

"the times u hate always seems to last...the times u want goes away too fast..."

hm deep stuff?haha...alrite i think its time for slp...bb peeps and tc!
chiao! =)

wazzup?

ok...todae in better spirits...
had my hair cut...woots...
hope it looks nice...
er...den went to the intensive subject thingy
with GF!...er...den went to eat dinner den came home...
ok so todae was quite boring...
it was a gloomy day...dampens the mood...
but also lowers the temperature...
and i dun just mean the atmoshperic temperature...

hm tml going to catch the finals
of the School Of Rock at bishan at 2.30 i think...
lvl 3...hm...i still wonder if their still going...
ah nvm...todae my whole body aching...
the aftermath of the running yesterdae...haha...
anyways i'm tired...so everyone tc and nitez...
chiao!

tired...

hm just came back...
very very tired...
tml going to cut my hair liao...
oh yea...but first i nid my beauty slp...
and my muscles are very sore...

my mood hasn't improved considerable...
though a good shower,a good book and a
GOOD NIGHTS rest would do it...

hm so chiao and tc peeps

haha?

hm i think i've run out of ideas for my title headings...
hm mums a constant nag...first thing i come home
is to ask where i've been and why didn't i tell her...
den she went on to complain abt us not eating the papaya
in the fridge...like its my fault...wish she could just not
WORRY abt so many things anymore...

maybe it runs in the family huh...haha...
alrite todae aint good...ran for X country...
went to eat after long discussions on where to go...
turns out i was bored and tired...so i went home early...
maybe becuz i neva open my mouth to tok lah...
but i aint got mood to...these few daes has always been
like dat...hm...alrite todae was a FUCK DAY!...whee

alrite tc peeps.chiao

happy Birthday Ms Pear!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS PEAR!
today ur 16 liao lo...haha...hope
ur parents ain't too hard on you... =)

alrite...was ok...i think i'm an idiot...
not going to elaborate...
hm...did geog paper after sch...
tml is cross country...woohoo...
NO SCHOOL!...anyways today was alrite...
till celebrating susan de birthdae...
was fun...hope she had fun...

hm got to go slp early now...
and drink lotsa water...
hope i do well tml!
wish me luck peeps! =)
tc and nites =)

ok bah...

todae had mixed emotions also...

lets start with the start of the day...
i woke up damn early todae...not that i wanted...
haiz...so was damn tired lah...hm...
den i found an interesting site this morning...
but i forgotten the webbie liao...haha
its a flash animation site...quite fun...
hm...

on to sch...alrite lah...didn't slp
although i nearly feel into it a few times...
hm suprisingly was during ss lesson...
well it takes alot of guts to say wad u say teacher...
hm alrite we understand how u feel...and maybe
i feel appologetic...but it DOSEN'T change much...
hm...anyways....had Maths test after sch...
was starting slow at first...but when sy they all went out...
i had too rush cos i ask them to wait for me...haha...
alrite...

it was quite fustrating...but in the end
its done...and wads done is done...
we shall stick by it and see lor...
i hope it turns out good...

ok rite here want to sae
thanks to angeline for lending me the earhpones...
sorry to eliza for making her late...
thanks to wendyl =)
thanks to sy for being patient todae and
sorry to u too for getting u the abrasions...

haha paiseh ah...hm anyways tc peeps nites! =)

fcuk...

i think i'll just SHUT UP...
and if anyone mentions anything
makes fun abt that issue again
I SWEAR TO U...U WOULDN'T SEE
THE FORGIVING SIDE OF ME ANY
FUCKING TIME SOON...

SO GO AROUND AND FUCK AROUND UR
OWN BUSINESS...

bad day...

alrite today i lost my short temper
a grand total of THREE times!
omg!...must really curb this thing liao...
haiyo...

well todae at least i limited damages...haha
but todae damn tired...long long dae...
but still must strive towards ' O ' s...

hm alrite its getting late..chiao peeps...

alright...

' the hopes we had were much too high... '

some lyrics of a nice song that keeps
repeating over and over again in my mind...
haha...alright...todae there seems to be tons
of work...or maybe brought forward frm the
past few weeks one...haha wadeva...

i'm not going to let u affect mi everydae...
believe me i WON'T...it ain't worth it...
or maybe...becuz maybe i think i'm not worthy...
or wadeva...u r a much better person and would do
better without someone like me...
i'll still try to stay around and be frens...
but always somehow i kip having this
nagging feeling tat we're just frens or
even good frens...neva could be something
more...so maybe lets just leave it that way huh...

but then again...as i always think abt forgetting u...
i would somehow crane my neck to see u...
to think of u...hm...it neva seems to go away huh...
so i think todae on wards...i'm going to take things so...
and only time will tell...

[ IT WON'T BE A WASTE OF TIME ]

alrite...

this abt yesterdae...

went out to study with the girls ( eliza.mich C.bloops!)
at coffeebean at two...i was late...not unusual...haha
but so were they!...haha...alrite must change this bad habit!
studied ss...dey did geog mind-map...hm den we studied till like
6 plus...but as usual when its nearing the end my body is
like getting restless and cant concentrate anymore...
so did a card for LARRY-BIRD...well i now noe that
drawing is certainly NOT for me...haha...
nvm...dne jolynn came over and mich went home with
her...den sy came over and joined us...all of us did a card for him...
cool...haha...den we corred up larry to come meet us at chomp chomp...
but we were late in getting dere...or maybe larry was early!...haha
cos edlyn sae he scared we zhen him...haha...
den we ate dere...some funny incidents...like larry talking out loud to a
lady waiting for our table...that was really funny...
den plaed zhong ji mi mah...loser having to drink an extra
$3 cup of sugar cane...and turns out the birthdae boy was the big winner!
den we bought a care for him frm sweet secrets and celebrated for him...
cool...haha...and he is embarrassed to haf to be sung a burfdae song!...haha...
after that we went to the playground...larry was evry bad abt cars passing by...
cos lester was with us...haha...nvm i shant elaborate...den around 10+ go home le...
had a fun dae i guess...=)

todae...

alrite i read frens blogs...hm mixed feeligns again i gues...
haha...nvm...it'll blow pass soon enuff...i hope...
going to do my geog mind-map later...tc peeps =)

fcuked...

hm todae has mixed feelings...
i hate myself too much to haf any self-respect ' ZI BEI! '
for myself...i think i'm going crazy thinking about things...
i seriously think i'm a farking idiot...
i really really felt like tearing those thots literally frm my head...' tear tear tear '
all along the way home i was like thinking and doing colleteral damage...' BOOM! '
on myself and my confidence...haha...ain't it dumb...' ARE U DUMB?ARE U DUMB? '
i couldn't take it and went for a run...' PANT PANT '
it took my mind off alot of things...
den when i did sit ups...was going into my second set
when i suddenly had a cramp...wah lau...jialat
when i stood up my stomach muscles just cramped up...
and i was like ow ow ow...haha girls i almost noe wad ur are going
through!...haha i think i'm sick now...mentally....
help! help! take a gun and shoot my foot!

lameness...

...and everyday u moving further away frm me. or am i moving away frm u?

tc peeps and good night! =)

hoho...

everyone seems to be alrite...
which is great...means most are happy...
then i'm happy too! =)

alrite...

[wake me up when september ends?]

wat does that really mean?

hm...sch was fine...
tml is going to be a sucky dae...becuz there ain't no
p.e. ...wadeva...den went home after sch...
tuition was alrite...hm...tired...
i think our brain moves faster when we sleep early...
so peeps tc and slp early =)

hm...

ok todae was fine...i never slp in cls for
the 4th consecutive week!...haha
wad an improvement frm last term...
haha...anyways...todae was alrite again...
the weather's turning liang liao...
hm pronounce that u haf my surname!
haha....lessons were alrite...and not for the first time...
i saw Ben Lau making ppl pissed...and i mean really fucked up...
not me but zhi kang...no doubt that Ben is a smart guy
but he is just IRRITATING...i mean as in like to
say fei hua when its not needed and pranking on ppl...
zhi kang's got a great tolerance...but i guess everyone has their limits...
anyways...todae's maths paper was ok lah...can do most...but still lost nearly 10 pts..
in not completing the sums lah...hm...den played abit of soccer...
den went to eat pizza with angeline and gang at compass...
den came home...i nid to buy a pair of earpieces so that
i can listen to my music on the go everywhere...
without that obiang of a headphone...

anyways...gtg and study...cya and tc peeps! =)

oh well...

todae was kinda tiring...
cool weather...alrite dae bah...
but maybe the sch hours were stretched abit too long...
cos by the time in hist remedial cant seem to put anything in my head...
yeap den after that went tuition...
which was alrite cos can do my sums...

thats all...got to go and study liaos chiao peeps and tc!

ooookay...

oh yeah i think i'm going to change...
i seem to haf found a new resolve in me...
maybe becuz i want to prove my dad wrong?
hm...or isit i want a good future for myself?
hm...lots of questions...many unanswered...
though most would be aswered in the future...

hm...oh well...recently SOMEBODY is msging
me alot...but i cant reply becuz CURRENTLY i dun
haf money on my hi! card...haha

anyways...if anyone is bored or something
here are some cool and interesting links which u can check it out...
enjoy! =)

www.gorillaz.com
www.iworkwithfools.com
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Main_Page
http://www.linkinpark.com/index.php

note though these links need go internet connections...haha
anyways...tc peeps! chiao

wad the hell...

was doing my geog yesterdae...den i finished one WHOLE
essay question...only to find that i've done the correct question no.
but WRONG CHAPTER!!!...
i felt like tearing my hair off my head man!
den yesterdae night after i came back...plaed computer game...
till like 12 bah...den my father came down and gave me a scolding...
no actually its A LECTURE...for half an hour long...kao...den tok abt me thinking
what i'm going to do to help myself in the next three months...
AND I HAF TO THINK ABT IN WHAT WAYS CAN MY PARENTS(!) CAN HELP ME...
i was like thinking (mind ur own FCUKING business lah...not in my way jiu can liao)
not quite a nice son would i be rite...i guess i cant understand wad my parents meant...
my father has said in the leture i'm irresponsible becuz all the promises i made to him
i did not fulfill...which was TRUE...i'm not proud to sae sometimes even outside family i
make promises to frens i also cant fulfill...haiz...and my father is worried bout my behaviour...
i'm not putting in effort...even if i am he cant see the EXTRA effort...which is mostly true...
my mum said my attitude is too laid back...the way i do things has no urgency...
well i'm really scared to shit abt my exams...its just that i neva tell my parents...
there's no ommunication between me and dem...which says alot bout my behaviour at home...
wad the hell...todae is 97 daes frm my exams!...
and its another month and one week till my prelims!
and i'm still playing games chat with ppl on the phone...i guess i nid some radical changes to my attitude...

occupying thoughts in my my mind u haf...

do or do not there is no try...

everydae i love u more and more...
and everydae i condemn myself more and more...
for always i tell myself it could neva be...
but u always gif me the slimmest glimmer that
tommorrow would be better...

oh well...LIFE'S A BITCH!(wouldn't that make us bitches?)
wadeva =) tc peeps...got to finish my geog now.

some famous quotes i got frm the net...

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."
- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

"Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted."
- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on."
- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

"His ignorance is encyclopedic"
- Abba Eban (1915-2002)

"Don't be so humble - you are not that great."
- Golda Meir (1898-1978) to a visiting diplomat

haha...some are hard to understand...but the last one is hilarious though...
hm decided to do something interesting...
dun want to bore u peeps and myself to death with memories abt my dae...
haha...

here are some outstanding jokes...these are some REALLY STUPID ppl...

A man in Johannesberg, South Africa, shot his 49-year-old friend in the face, seriously wounding him, while the two practiced shooting beer cans off each other's head.

When two service station attendants in Ionia, Michigan, refused to hand over the cash to an intoxicated robber, the man threatened to call the police. They still refused, so the robber called the police and was arrested.

Mariah Carey was one of the first celebrities to comment on the death of the King of Jordan. Mariah told CNN "I'm inconsolable at the present time, I was a very good friend of Jordan, he was probably the greatest basketball player this country has ever seen, we will never see his like again". When told by reporters that it was King Hussein of Jordan who had died and not Michael Jordan, Mariah was then led away by her security in a state of "confusion".

A man staggers into an emergency room with two black eyes and a five iron wrapped tightly around his throat. Naturally the doctor asks him what happened. Well, it was like this, said the man. I was having a quiet round of golf with my wife, when she sliced her ball into a pasture of cows. We went to look for it, and while I was rooting around I noticed one of the cows had something white at its rear end. I walked over and lifted up the tail, and sure enough, there was my wife's golf ball........stuck right in the middle of the cow's butt. That's when I made my mistake. "

haha...dunnoe if their funny anot...will try to find more
interesting sites and quotes...but till den tc peeps.=)

oh well...

haha...

todae was ok...

had 'O' lvl chinese listening...

dun want to tok abt it...

retake jiu retake lo...

haiz...neva do geog...

must go and chiong tml...

oh man i think i strained my hand todae

while doing the pull-up...now my left hand will haf

uncontrolled spasms...wth...

hm...

neva will it be the dae
when i look, if u may,
at ur lovely face
and turn my grimace
into a very big grin
like i've take a swipe of gin


oh thart sucked...

haha...

and to one preson...if u were angry by

any means todae...i appologise...

its might haf been a prank went to far...

hm...accept my ' sorries ' ok?

life still sucks as its still boring...

i wondered if i haf irritated anyone recently...

well i appologise again...' SORRY'

it seems like saying that word is almost useless...

wadeva...

anyway tc peeps

=(

the strangest thing when i slept yesterdae

was i dreamt of holding hands with HER...

i guess in my mind i was like friggin happy...

till like my ALARM clock woke me up...

haha...shyt man...

i think i'm really going bonkers...

fuck...todae is not a good dae...

really not a good dae...

i dunnoe wat to sae to u...

i want to ask u are u ok...but just couldn't get it out of my mouth...

i was just afraid of asking u...afraid u might tell me to fcuk off...

but not asking u had me wondering were u ok...

hm...den also there is the matter of HER...

i want to put u aside now...but i can't...becuz i think of u 24/7

i dun even noe how u invaded my dreams!

hm...and i think Mrs Ng is on the verge of snapping...

and we're on the verge of snapping(or isit just me?) frm her...

fucking can't stand her...argh!

i currently feel that life is fuckinly fucked fuck fuck up now...


[it is the ppl who ties the knots that need to untie it...
only den would the problem be solved]