wad the hell...

was doing my geog yesterdae...den i finished one WHOLE
essay question...only to find that i've done the correct question no.
but WRONG CHAPTER!!!...
i felt like tearing my hair off my head man!
den yesterdae night after i came back...plaed computer game...
till like 12 bah...den my father came down and gave me a scolding...
no actually its A LECTURE...for half an hour long...kao...den tok abt me thinking
what i'm going to do to help myself in the next three months...
AND I HAF TO THINK ABT IN WHAT WAYS CAN MY PARENTS(!) CAN HELP ME...
i was like thinking (mind ur own FCUKING business lah...not in my way jiu can liao)
not quite a nice son would i be rite...i guess i cant understand wad my parents meant...
my father has said in the leture i'm irresponsible becuz all the promises i made to him
i did not fulfill...which was TRUE...i'm not proud to sae sometimes even outside family i
make promises to frens i also cant fulfill...haiz...and my father is worried bout my behaviour...
i'm not putting in effort...even if i am he cant see the EXTRA effort...which is mostly true...
my mum said my attitude is too laid back...the way i do things has no urgency...
well i'm really scared to shit abt my exams...its just that i neva tell my parents...
there's no ommunication between me and dem...which says alot bout my behaviour at home...
wad the hell...todae is 97 daes frm my exams!...
and its another month and one week till my prelims!
and i'm still playing games chat with ppl on the phone...i guess i nid some radical changes to my attitude...

occupying thoughts in my my mind u haf...

do or do not there is no try...

everydae i love u more and more...
and everydae i condemn myself more and more...
for always i tell myself it could neva be...
but u always gif me the slimmest glimmer that
tommorrow would be better...

oh well...LIFE'S A BITCH!(wouldn't that make us bitches?)
wadeva =) tc peeps...got to finish my geog now.