Nostalgic

yesterday was kinda fun...though i only met shy for 45 mins...
did some hrm discussion b4 heading to borders bistro to chill out...haha.
the food there wasn't bad, it has a high tea buffet for weekends and public holidays.not bad.$11+. but of course we had ben, so it was way much cheaper, and we shared the $11 among 4 guys...so...kinda like Singaporean budget-style.haha.

anyhow, in the evening wasn't so bad as expected.haha.
it was my senior's from SPA, celebrating his birthday,someone i respect alot. so he org a party at dance@moberly.
kinda cool, and at first i tot me being there would kinda be awkward...
and at first it really felt that way.haha.
maybe its becuz i disappointed them countless times, and i feel guilty.
sometimes i look at the people from my batch and forging close bonds with the juniors, kinda makes me wonder what it would have been, had i really persevered and stayed on.
like i always said in the past, it didn't mattered the training was tough,but the bonds that formed was the most impt. but people were leaving and i didn't want to continue on partly becuz i felt it was pointless and partly becuz i was committed to another club.
i always wondered what would happened if i had concentrated on SPA.maybe it would have taken me and shyanne longer time to get together.maybe it wun happen?maybe.

still, thinking abt old memories,kinda nostalgic.haha.but we still always have a future to look forward to.at the birthday party, met up with a few of the alumni and they talked abt their current situations and gave us younger ones some advice on how to plan ahead.
maybe gg to the gathering wasn't such a bad idea after all.

looking through my old photos, its been such a roller-coaster ride.almost 3 years since i graduated from sec sch, and it has zipped by, literally in a blur.people change,some drastically, some more slowly.i'd like to think i'd change slowly.haha.19 is the pt where some think hard abt their future,some work hard to become men, some still continued on a path that is laid out for them,but fast growing shorter by the day.we grow up to damn fast.
we're all scared, but i ain't scared to face it.just have to take challenges head on.oh well.i'm damn excited abt my FM marks.LOL. and i've got a ECM report to rush.(my teammates probably gonna kill me)and hrm presentation to think abt.time ain't enuff!
till then.

i miss you babe!

winter wonderland...

mabe the blog bug is back, but i'm kinda coming back to this.
haha. yesterday had bbq again at pasir ris park.
the wind was biting, but the fire was good.=D

the food was good, so was the banter and the talk...haha.
loads of rubbish but it was fun and nice.kinda miss this kinda
feeling of sitting around with frens, and joke and make fun and
just basicaly fool around and enjoing ourselves.
thanks to kitty for the nice present and pls maboel-ing i dun stink at all...
the bad part was the damn grass was so fucking muddy.

after that went to weilun's house to ton...haha.
he's got a 2 dog/bears in the house, kinda like big and fluffy kind..haha.
talk and played some games, which led to us slping at abt 5.30?
losta farting gg around too...came back and just layed on the bed...haha.

happy birthday ricky!=)

christmas is coming!i need some cash!

1 year babe!=)

KELONG KELONG!

this blog is really rotting. countless peeps have been telling me that.
well no inspiration blog for wad.haha.
and its kinda boring when i kip blogging abt the same stuff over and over again.
i'm content with my current life, but i'm willing it to improve soon.

i've just came back from the kelong trip!
was rather fun,first time catching fish and all.did i mention i saw a big stingray up close and personal?though it was abit nearing death...still how many people in sch can boast that?haha.
but the main thing wasn't the number or the sizes of fish i caught but rather the experience.
the peace and quiet of the night, the remoteness, kinda makes it ur
own exclusive place to R&R.though the bed was sticky and it was raining like no tmr.

post the pictures up sometime soon. till den.

everytime i look at this web page my mind draws a black...haha.not like last time anymore.
in the day have lots to say,but when wan to blog abt it kinda either lazy or not bothered.

this blog used to be my emo spot,now its kinda empty...
but that dosen't mean my life is...
she's kinda brought balance to me...i'm happy with her=)

i need to work out soon.
i cant do TWO freaking pull-ups!

hear your voice calling my name
and it sound so sweet...

love gg to east coast with her!haha.wind's just nice,though abit wet though.HAHA.though we never roller blade,it was nice watching the sea and the ships and talking.even manged to catch a glimpse of a crab scuttling around.haah love the cookies u made!=B

love ain't an easy thing,but that's wad makes it strong right?

just wad have i become?

wat have we become?

Make-Over

this blog ain't dead.haha.

just went for haircut.$22! but ok la...not bad.
haha.shaved sides and thinned out center...
means everyday must try to style liao.

oh well.things ain't gg right.
i'm gg to FIX THEM!muahahaha.
the light is dim u see,
exams coming soon!like this friday!argh!
darkness creeping all around me.
i feel some friends have grown apart.though
we still meet up, the feel ain't the same some say.
well i guess we just have to work and find it back, eh?
and as i fight to find my way,
nthing stays the same i guess.
move along or get left behind.
u seem to turn ur back and walk away...

back?

seems an eternity since i last post.

its been a tiring few weeks.
school with work.some family problems.
hope fully i get good grades for the Mid Sem test.

Poly 50's coming up.not in the exact condition
1 year ago.but hopefully we'll be ok.
just as long as we tried our best, i think we'll do fine.

dear oh dear.i still havent much changed my attitude.
ah fuck.damnit i'm still guilty abt it and not being able to fulfill
my promises.i tot i just changed for the better.
well it isn't showing.

but changes hardly are immediate do they?

they said love was blind,
but its eyes were fine,
'cuz you found me.

she's coming back!

=D dear's coming home soon!
but i've got full shift work.=(

maybe if i save until 2.5k
den they have enuff ppl den i dun work liao.
gg to die from stress.

EXAM!ARGH!

random

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

i think i look like...

ShYaNnE

finally all the damn reports have been handed up.why does this
wenda leong want to be such a BITCH and make most ppl dislike her?
can sort of take a break now...during the weekend i guess...
but i have work...=(

after the weekend must start studying liao...
maybe not alot everyday but consistently everyday must study...
at least try to.
MST is after the two weeks break.
and i must study well to try to help my dear! =)
haha.well of course i study for myself and also for her la...=D

ok.i need to socialize more.
i'm very lonely during trips home.haha.
i miss soccer!
I MISS HER EVEN MORE!

I'm missing you.

Hey i' back.
my e-learning is taking forever to complete.esp QA.
but i guess its cos i'm bloody taking my own sweet time.
i have no sense of urgency.


i sometimes think human behaviour is bloody confusing.
an example.
i like to study.but during academic term, i dun make use of my time.
i detest the regimes and time-tables we have to stick to.
but when given free rein over time and how to use it, we abuse it or just waste it.
and when u get into that situation, u think how it would be better to
just have something to hold u in focus and push you on.
well and then u get to that situation, after awhile u'll be sick of it and yearn for ultimate freedom
and so on...its bloody confusing and vicious cycle, that at the end of the day,
u wun,if not hardly, get anything done.


confusing? hur.


i think all of us needs a motivator, who knows when to push us
and when to encourage us.
we have many figues like that in our lives, just that either:

1. we dun see them
2. we due use them
3. we dun bother
4. we dun appreciate
5. we dun understand

'you won't miss your water till the well runs dry...'

ok.next!
worked yesterday.bloody tiring.
then i did training later.BLOODY Tiring.
I Still miss her.Come home SOON! =)

come home soon...

woo

ok back to bloggin.

dear's gone to finland.for 3 WEEKS. damnit.wish i could have gone with
her.if only the damn package wasn't that expensive...
communication will be difficult...cos of the time difference
and the costs that might be involved...
but still i'll keep in contact as always.hehe =)
hope u liked the book.must update it!

liverpool lost.dang it.it's damn frustrating.liverpool WERE the better team.
but they just lucked out.
but i'll still support them.i hope they make some big significant signings.

damn e-learning is irritating.

i've still got uccd to do.and my work is interferring! cb!
i'm seriously thinking of not working all together.
i'd choose my studies over anything else.

met pear and eli today.they noticed my teeth is more outstanding now.-.-"
a few months never see each other and the first thing they had to say was to
point that out.haha.still it was nice to catch up with them.
it really was a long time.pear kip saying i not man enuff.NO CHEST.haha.
oei have hor...just of course smaller den girls de ma...haha.
i'd ever saw this guy in camp, during shim night,cant fit into the bra one
of his female campmates loaned it to him.dunno who was more embarressed.haha.

oh well.lately, the past's been coming up to my mind.been thinking abt the carefree
days of sec sch...the daft things that we all did.haha.still cant believe fabian brought his
beaker to the front...LOL.private joke.haha.and i won't forget the frens i made there.
there's this fren,feelings just fade dun they?i still have the email.i just hope u can remember
wad u wrote in there.

now, i've got a wonderful gf. hehe.cant wait for you to come back!
ok this has been a long post.
i've got more things to say, but i'll save it up for another time.
take care peeps.cya.=)

LOVE YOU, SHYANNE TAN!=B

it seems what i do never seems to be enuff.
but i'll still try, becuz I LOVE YOU very much so.

my dear, pls understand...

man i think i'm taking everything for granted.
fcuk.

ai ni!

i've let you down.disappointed you.
my lousy attitude make us go thru shit times.
i really am very sorry...sincerely from the bottom of my heart.
esp for the last week...

believe me, i'm trying to change.
i dun want to make promises that i always seem unable to fulfil.
i dun want to have a very combustible attitude.
i dun want to be a insensitive prick.
i dun want to make u unhappy.
i want to see you smile...

my dearest,Je t'aime shyanne...and i really miss you.

repent

i'll take the blame.

and i will find a solution to solve this.
but you have to work with me on that...
i dunno wad to do...i love you dear and i never meant for it to happen...
pls forgive me...

A Day for Reflections

my brother can sometimes be the worst ass in the world...

ccb. i hate it when sometimes it i'm being vented by his stupid anger...

damn ljb sia...nah bei.

ok so its back to bloggin.and back to sch...haha.

woo.i'm still so damn tired these few days.

still haven recovered from gg to sch for my past holidays

almost EVERYDAY...mind you some even went on

all the days...

still, its great to see the freshies liking the camp =)

but the oc really had alot of issues to settle with behind the scenes...

oh well.

i must be the worse boyfriend u could ever find...

i'm sorry u had to go thru so much with me when u could have

so much more fun with someone else...

i'll try my best to be the best u'll ever have...ever need...

thanks for being with me

thru out...Eu te amo! Ayor anosh'ni!

LOVE HER!

LOVE SHYANNE TAN! =D

guilt

mdan there's so much i want to say out here...
but only she knows.
anyway. thanks glen =D

i'm not gg to go down as low as u
and start backstabbin me.
u think wad u think.

damn tired these few days.slp late and wake early for work...
gg to die soon man....

awww shit...

hmmm.i acted like a total asshole these few weeks.
esp the last weekend. this has to change.

ok results coming out on wed!argh!
grad ball is on thurs!Argh!
this has been a busy busy holiday...

i guess i'm still learning.
we all make mistakes.thing is, do u learn from them or commit it again?

GHOST RIDER!

ok!today is chu san!(third day of the lunar new year!)
ok lah.not that i'm hard up for the ang pows.
but since their given i shant ask for it.
not alot...but its just an yi si lah...so nvm
haha...went to watch Ghost Rider today...
not a bad flim...but certainly not a good one such that i will
say i will watch again...haha.
but still it was enjoyable.=)

MONEY MONEY MONEY!flow in now!=)

I LOVE EVERY MOMENT WITH YOU DEAR!=D

Valentine"s

So
Valentine's was yesterday! it was alrite.nice quiet evening
spent at east coast....
i'm currently gg around to get job interviews...damn this sucks.
haha.i've got alot of commitments also to sch...
damn how am i gg to jugle this?
i want to go to SPA's trip to Teman Negara.
but scared it clashes with my work...damn.

ok.sometimes i want to be very selfish.
to want you all by myself....haha.
miss you all the time babe.cya soon ok?
dun becuz of work forget abt me......

thats all peeps.another update in a week!haha.

Its freaking ONE MONTH! =D

okok!its official!
i'm head over heels for YOU!heh

went to watch a show at nat lib's
drama centre.very entertaining...haha.
lucky she told me abt it.throughly enjoyed myself.hope she did too...
oh we ate at the dunno chinese something restaurant...quite nice.
got my first taste of durian fried rice!woohoo....lol.ok lah.nthing special.
just that its friend rice with NO vegetabales but has durian smell...
weird huh.haha!but seriously not bad.

ok babe.hehe.love ya!:)
happy 1 month!XD

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

bwahahaha!finished pacc paper!
thats two exam papers down and 1 more to GO!
ok.its quite a bummer to have an exam paper happening on my
birthday...irritating sia.but anyway.
thanks everyone!for the well wishes and all.=)

yeah had a wonderful celebration with nib-nib!lol!
the most unique of cakes and cards.
and a wonderful wonderful present!LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!=))
watched one alst dance also...hmm
i think it was an entertaining show la...but not so sure abt the storyline though...
haha.and the food at fei-chui not bad...
but its friggin expensive!*wings$wings*
anyhow!feburary must be the lucky month!
hehe more more more outings with you my dear! =D

one day she asked me how long we'd be together...
and i'd tell her 'abit longer than forever...'

I LOVE HER!!!!

ok!econs down! yahooooooooooooooooo.
hope it really went better then expected!hehe.

ok now for that huge task of attempting to pass pacc
with FLYING colours...never succeed at that.haha.
ok.and its 3 more hours to my birthday.
whee.great rite?birthday on my paper.
and this stupid paper is right smack in the afternoon.
2-4.zzz.so much for the fun.haha.

hee.i miss you!faster faster faster exam end!
den can chiong all the places we have listed out to go!
and do the things we have said we would do!together^^
heh.

Woo~

ok today's quite a great day! ^^\/

haha.today was supposed to go to celebrate ling ling's birthday in the afternoon.
which we did.but they also surprised me with my birthday celebration!
haha.really unexpected!THANK YOU GUYS(cindy,shujun,lingling,mabel,stanley,denis,jitsheng and hweekiat!) and anyone who gave me well wishes! =)
and thanks for the present too...like it very much! =D

we'll run together....

cant live without you...

hello there...the angel from my nightmare.

ok so this week has been well a torturous week for my mind...
had to endure tests and projects...last week was the same.
ah i need some slp.my mum keep asying lack of slp harms the brain.
no wonder i felt my memory is detrioriating...
oh well.one paper down.
3 more to go.majors one at that.

had a great evening out last night...haha.
love you my dear(s).no just kidding.only got one!
haha.=D

to a starry night we gaze,
"thats beautiful!" we look amazed.
and as i look into ur lovely face,
i know together we'll run the race...

cant stop loving you...

sch's been reopened for a week already...
meaning my first paper is just two weeks away...
how time passes so fast...

just wanna say it been a great week with ya=)
thanks for ur support girl.i appreciate it!
zha men yi qi jiayou!
love ya!=))

love love LOVE! =))

exams are creeping nearer!!!
oh i took a test recently abt my anti-oxidants lvl in my body...
turns out its very low...haha.
but i eat vegetables and exercise regularly.not enuff slp though.
haha.maybe should exercise less and slp more...
the last week was hectic...esp tues.
but anyhow.thats passed. and i'm thankful i have you along.=D

yesterday spent my day with her.WOOTS!
went around vivo...some shops still not open.
and we couldn't find Long John Silvers.haha.
saw many stuff...but i've got no bloody money to buy them!
i want to get alot of things! all that and more with a new job!haha.

only a fool would say he knows the future.
but i say we would go on for a long long time...
becuz i'm a fool for you!haha!

hmmm busy busy week.test events and more exams!
this the season to be busy fa la la la la la~la la la...

yesterday was my first time eating kebab
and chou dou fu!haha.the kebab was nice...
chou dou fu was really pungent the smell...
yet it tasted nice also...
but this one not the ultimate i heard.got some can smell
the 'fragrence from very far away.
one day i shall go try all these kinda wacky stuff.
and it was a treat somemore.haha^.^
thanks!
i'm falling for u deeper everyday.
i just hope its the same for u too...

happy 2007!

so my last post for the new year was a nice no. 350....

and now its the new year.happy new year everyone.=)
but however we should always look back reflect and think
and to either learn or let go...
before we can embrace the new.

so...
many things i have learnt in 06...
many things that i have realised that things never always
turn out the way u want it.
just stick with wad u believe in and always do...
and ur life will right it self.
in retrospect,2006 was quite a year.
with more downs den ups.
but it gradually got better...and i hope it only will
last throughout the new year and beyond.

so its goodbye 06 hello 07!