shyt...

i'm totally screwed for chinese...i've really flunked!!!...to hell with chinese...though i may look like one i'm not for it anymore...i dun care how ppl feel abt me not connecting with my roots...i can speak...ask to do it...i'm just not up to it...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...after chinese my mood was down...really down...felt like tearing my paper up...i've let my parents down...and its my own doing...especially when i speak chinese at home...and my mum is chinese educated...she would definitely feel damn disappointed with the result of 42/2/3 marks for CA and PRELIMS...oh fuck...anyways...after sch went to study...starting i could concentrate....but after that...my concentration just wasn't dere...i tried to do my maths...but i couldn't do...i tried to memorise s.s...cannot...tried to do geog...a lit bit onli...in the end i went back to ss...den had dinner outside with them...den around 8 jiu go home le...had a nice chat with eds on the way home...she made clear a few things to me...ahaha...going back to studying after this...tc peeps and study hard...chiao!