ARGH!!!

fucked...i've flunked my chinese...but i dun complain..i deserve it...i neva studied...my CA was also one big mess...fucked...i've screwed myself over...yesterdae didn't update becuz i came home late...around 10+ den reach home...after sch yesterdae went to study with eds susan and eliza...charmaine came later...study until evening and went to susan house for dinner with dem...den afterwards continued to study...with eliza going home and sy joining us...den around 9+ ppl start to go home...leave me and sy...den we did abit more b4 leaving around 9.45 likdat...very tired...den todae sian lor...first period Mrs Lee scold like siao...though i guess we deserve it...cos we never did homework and she went over the roof...but i think she went too far...she just scolded everybody...just scold and scold...even for smallest of things...her reasons were quite man bu jiang li de...even asked us to stay back and do...shyt her...den during english...i very super buai tahan english le...and more more getting pissed off by Mrs Ng...I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!...the english department haf to be so meticulous...den haf to pressure teachers until siao?...i noe Mrs Ng under alot of pressure..especially frm Ms Chew Mui Mui and the Eng Department...but the load dat comes down frm the teachers and the den unloads it to us is too much man...maybe for mi...i just lost my cool todae again...i HATE this life...sometimes dying feels like the only way out..but must find the will to go on...i still haf so much wishes to fulfill and things to try...wat is this compared to the pressure frm the REAL world...the SOCIETY...DEADLINES to meet?...this is nothing!...i will concentrate and tidy up my messed up life!...i will not be defeated this easily!...i will study hard!!!actions speak louder then words!!!