hm...

todae is just like the reverse of yesterdae...hmmm
i dunnoe...on the way home i tot abt alot of stuff...
i think sometimes i kinda think too much...
i think abt HER...
i think abt my life now...
i think abt my goals....
i think abt my frens....
i think abt the problems we go thru...
and most of all i think abt myself...

sometimes thinking too much is taxing...
not just on ur mind...but on ur confidence as well...
i think abt myself...believe anot...to condem myself...
haha...every action i haf done...i would think abt it...
and though i always sae...do wat u believe in and nea doubt urself and dun always think bout how ppl look at u...
but its like i ALWAYS think bout how ppl feel abt my reactions...
and why i always do it...and what the FUCK I AM DOING...

somtimes playing sports let all these fustrations out...
i'll play till i drop...cos it always takes my mind of stuff...
u concentrate on the GAME...and not on things outside...
and after the GAME ur too tired to think abt anything else...
at least thats how i feel lah...diff ppl haf diff ways to relieve their stress...

i want my frens to be happy...but i cant make them...
try as i might...i onli make a fool out of myself...
haha...i'm in relective mood now...and possibly in a bad one too...
fCuK...

so fun?

haha...todae was such a success!
in the morning when i jumped out
frm bed i found the whole sky stormin' black...
it was really threatening to rain...got drenched abit when i went tuition...
but after tuition the sky miraculously cleared...a sign of things to come perhaps?...
had alot of fun spraying water todae...when wendyl came down to meet us...
me eliza mich lee yvvone and sy were positioned to spray water at her!
haha...so when she came down frm the steps we sprayed her till she was totally soaked frm head to toe...
haha!...den they played treasure hunt...dunnoe why they so easily found where we hid the envolopes...
probably is becuz we didn't want to MAKE IT TOO HARD FOR DEM...haha...den the ppl whu hid the envolopes
sy ruikiat susan and me got punished...we got sprayed back at by eli yvvone wendyl and mich lee...
kao...eli go AND SPRAY WATER INTO MY EAR!!...den when i talk was like how come can hear myself tok?
cos got water stuck in my ear...haha...but i got my payback later =)

hm we played another game...me susan sy and ruikiat one grp eli yvvone lorriane wendyl and mich lee one grp...objective of the game is to make the other grp laugh by doing actions...any kinda action also can...
the catch is u haf water in ur mouth...and so...haha...so which ever team has two players spitting out their water...or in some instances haf their water leaking frm their mouth...loses =)
very PROUD TO SAE OUR TEAM DID NOT LOSE!...haha though how much they tried!
hehe...somemore someone got spit in the face!...lolz...
den our turn at first couldn't make dem laugh...den in the end we use our ' Mi Mi wu Qi '...
haha...so we sprayed dem back...but after we spray finish liao...dey very jian cos they got stash some water else where...den after we spray finish they toook those bottles and tried to wet us back!...which sad to sae...DID NOT SUCCEED!...haha...hm den after that we got the cake out and celebrated for wendyl...den after that packing up the area we went to pasir ris beach...sat there and played games...some went home me included while the rest went to eat dinner at fisherman's village...

so tired now...haha had such a wonderful dae!
so happy =)
anyways its late tml still got sch...so spoiler haha
tc peeps chiao!

i'm am so sick...

bleah...todae woke up jiu got stomach ache liao...
wah kao...bo pian so wake around 8 den jiu go toilet...den went back to slp
den woke up ard 10 again only to suffer stomach ache again den went to toilet...
kao...todae is a real shitty dae...zzZzz...
sian...i've wasted precious time le...time to go an do work...oh
i think i'm going to lau sai again...bb peeps...

argh...

some ppl really made my dae...

while one has not...

i asked becuz i cared...
i dunnoe why u gaf me that response...
but that really pissed me off...
i maybe didn't asked the question in the rite manner...
or maybe i couldn't see u were in a bad mood...
thinking of it just makes my blood boil...
u might think i'm fann...i'm busybodied...but i dun understand why u said those stuff...
i onli asked wads wrong...meaning wats trobuling u...anyting u want to share...
haizz...sometimes being the nice one is hard...
i dunnoe how this might strain the friendship...
but i'm sure as pissed enuff to cut the ties rite now...
but i guess we all cooled down and think it over...
we might find faults in our actions and seek a compromise...


argh fuck!...
tc peeps...and gd nites to all

tired?

woohoo~
had chinese oral(does that sound obscene?...yes? ok) todae...
flunked it man...haha
so i'm going to haf to retake my chinese paper now...
fuck...hm...after chinese oral...
went to hall to watch aaron they all plae their guitars...
cool...somedae i'm going to PLAE IN A BAND!!!
I'M GOING TO LEARN TO PLAE DRUMS!!!
but its studies first...
so after the performance the girls want to plae netball...so plaed...
and we WON!!!...haha...NTHING MUCH LAH...
dench after that went canteen...hm...i shant sae much dere...
but if ur reading cheerup gal...=)
haha...got nick to cheer u up sia...haha
anyways den went to plae somemore...
den jiu go home...hm..talked alot with someone
all i can sae is if ur reading is...
is not always possible to please everybody...
in trying so u wld achieve nth...
i'm not saying u shld release the others...
but maybe stick to some u wuld really want to be with...
and not be the other way round...
the freedom of choice lies within u...=)

ok i am so darned bored...and tired...haha...dunnoe why...
ppl haf been saying my eyes are bloodshot...dang...i only wanted eye rings...
haha...

i've also found that doing sports helps me take my mind off alot of things...
its like able to take a break and enjoy u noe?
its like wad ppl do when they plae music...nice music i meant...
not non-sensical jamming...haha
ok...i think i going to fall asleep on my keyboard...haha
so tc peeps and slp well...
peace =)

[its not the mistakes that counts-its what you do afterwards]