wad?

hm didn't update cos yesterdae not at home...
hm morning went to watch the girls plae...
den after tat plaed abit of bbor...dunnoe why i still plae it though i suck at it...
den went to eat lunch at pizza hut...hm...quite zhibi bah...
den went to plae badminton at the civil service club...
den go had dinner with granddad and dad...
den went to my aunts place to stay...so that todae morning can haf tuition...

this is a boring post...
warning if u are in a very bad mood pls fuck off...this wouldn't improve it by much....

i seriously hate my life now...i hate the times when i suck at almost everyother thing...
i hate the times when i get scolded...i hate the times when i get lousy results...
i hate the times when i lose anything....i hate the times when i lose my anger...
i hate the times when i always be the nice guy and the 'yes' man...
i hate the feelings that are inside me...for i can never haf the girl i want...
i hate the times when i whine like now...

but den again...
life has much things to live for...
like the times i spend with frens...
the feelings of falling in love...
the sensations of eating...
the self-satisfaction when u ass-wipe some bloody arrogant snob smirk away frm his face....
the rejoyce at having won something in my lousy life...
the feeling of warmth and love when someone,anyone shows concern and care...


and yet...iu always seems the nice sensations can never last...
its always the bad feelings that last the longest way...
its dosen't take much to hate...to curse...to fight...
but it take balls of steel and courage to
forgive...to walk away frm a punch thrown by someone...to never take into heart wat ppl swear at u...
and to express ur love and care for someone...

ah forget it i'm talking crap...

[let me take u away frm the darkness
[to a place of happiness
[and never make u sad
[cos it would drive me mad
[i'll be ur vacation frm this place
[together we will run the race
[of life and never regret...

fuck!