F***....

damn shit man...my com really sucks....and i haf lousy control of my temper...or so ppl sae...my hand still has not recovered....had quite alot of pain...can feel swollen again le...shyt....if using this method of using the cast to put the bone into back into place fails...the operation room beckons....which is big shyt...or my dad would refuse and would put me through more pain by going to the chinese doctors...again...when i think their methods won't work....not that i neba try...try le still can't how?...damn fucked up with tis com....almost back the monitor with the hand in cast....the cast is so hard....hit tin can tin can bend...wahaha...i got an invincible hand...laming....todae got see the last year grad class come take their 'O' lvl resuls...hm...wun sae good or bad...just felt very scared for in a yrs time i would be down dere tooo,waiting with sweating palms for the miserable piece of paper also...really worried bout the looming exams...keep saying want to work hard...in the end is me sitting infront of computer....

argh...

I.WANT.TO.BREAK.MY.HAND.
I.WANT.TO.BREAK.MY.LIFE.
I.FEEL.MISERABLE.
SOMEBODY.TAKE.ME.FAR.AWAY.AND.NEVA.COMEBACK.
i.seriously.hate.my.life.

shyt...

i just came back frm the specialist clinic at CGH...the guys dere put a cast on my hand...and i haf to keep it for 3 WEEKS!like wtf...sian lor...now cant type,write,eat..very mah fan....in contants pain also...cos doc forcibly push back bone den use cast to hold....fucking uncomfortable...fucking irritating....fucking troublesome...

i'mingoodsprits...

hoho...i noe i've not been updating regularly....abit lazy lah..haha...lazy to think bout past few daes de dong xi lah...maybe becuz cannot remember?or isit dun want to remember?hahaz...dunnoe lah...but i'm quite happy with life now...i'll live life as it comes to me...passin dae by dae...wasting my time...hahaz...and also enjoying life...thats the main point in life yes?maybe learning also bah...haha...so todae in the morning quite sian diao lah...cos first lesson jiu must see BAH-GAY de lian...sian lor...7 early 8 earlt[translate in chinese pls..hahaz] must scold ppl wan le...she no scold ppl for one dae will die de lo...buay tah-HAN!...damn demanding lah...den got english...quite dissapointed with my marks...esp my summary...must work hard...den pure geog rite...also sian diao lo...must do and do self-study for that sub le...den aftrecess...LAO TIAN YE heng heng bless me that dun haf to see MS LIM de act-cute-buay-cute de lian and attitude...haha...den the relief teacher is also funny looking de...neck-long,small head and normal body...den go mr pang class..den go dere do work...den jiu LCE...high with my group...tok loads of crap...its so nice to haf a good laugh once in awhile...to transport ur mind frm the present...into a temporary place of fun and no worries...reality has always the sickest of ways to pull u right back into it...found out that the field outside our sch had caught fire...smoke was irritating and choking...but during chinese lesson i could do my letter writing in time to pass up...wahaha...so sian...went tution just now...den came home...i suddenly felt i haf changed again....i'm no more moody as b4?...or maybe i just dun want to remember my unhappy tots?hm...STM?...in a way its good bah...dun dwell on the past focus on the present and think for the future?haha...so cheesy...sian...doing ss project now..tired going off le...tc ppl bb....SMILE ALWAYS PPL!

woots?

hehe todae out the whole dae...morning go to mac house...go dere onli to find me the earliest....cos they neva tell me they all change time...diao so go dere around 9.30...wait till 10 seok chin come den later the rest stream in...den the game Big Small(loose translation)...haha...den plae the normal games....den jiu sian diao after lunch...haha cos quite sian lah...den we stay till 5 plus den go to k box at hougang plaza...but dunnoe y dey neva go?too expensive bah...den in the end go to marina dere eat....eat the 12 dollar one....i tink that one better den the 10 dollar one lo...i mean the food lah...service is a suspect bah...den eat eat eat...frm 6+ eat till like 8 liao...dunnoe why i b4 go eat look sian sian...den after eating jiu high le...haha eating really lifts ur mood?haha...sian diao...come home jiu no more adrenaline rush liao...sian...very hungry now...