i feel like an idiot now.
haha.

i tot life was rosy a few weeks ago.
now u've made me changed mymind again.

where is my sweet november rain?

blast from the past?

while TRYING to tidy up my room just now...
i found a few foto albums from my primary sch days...
one was taken when i was around p3 or p4...
the other was when i was p6.
looking thru the photos...a profound rush of memories came
rushing back...

its funny the way u look back at ur past photos and say
'HEY i looked like THAT in the past?'
and den it hits u...u've changed.alot.not just u but everyone.
the people u seem to noe very well den
is like a stranger to u now.
they change and so did i.

i'mnomore the idiot with the centre parting of my hair...
i lost my baby fats...but gained weight...haha
but the people around me...
noel used to be a close friend...USED TO...
so was joshua...and alex tee...and hong hao...and abriel
i've lost contact with hong hao...and thou i see abriel now and den...
the closesness is now further away...
the times i had in pri sch far supass anything i remember in sec sch...
but den again...the friendships i forged in sec sch are stronger and steadfast.
but in terms of laughter and joy primary sch was the best...
the things we do during recess to the things we do after sch...
the times when we have quick and petty arguments with frens but
jut as quickly patch up...
the times where we played block catching with frens...
the times where we can talk abt ANYTHING under the sun
and fear not of wat repercussions it might have...
the time when the soccer khakis got caught by the cdc and police were called
in just becuz we climbed in a fenced up soccer cage under maintainence.
the times where smiles were genuine
where laughter and joy were abound
where we were careless of wad lay ahead and the worries...
INNOCENCE.
gone.
haha am i provoking long buried memories?
or it has become a mirage in ur mind...where images come and go
all but just an illusion...
am i caught up in a blast from the past?haha...

wrking yesterday was fun...haha
cos the pretty was wrking there again...
haha.her name is...
wait...i'm not supposed to do tat...haha!
in anycase.
the day b4 i magine my day was good.
yesterday morning i just keep telling my self
'today will be alrite.'
it seriously turned out alrite.
it has NTHING to do with the girl.
i guess(no pun intended.) its all in the mind.

try waking up in the morning and tell ur self
' today will be good!'
i'm not kidding.
its like programming ur mind that today will good.
but anyways i hope she comes back more often to my wrkplace.
haha!but she has a bf already.its not like i'm going after her.
just that she was the other 16-yr old there.
the rest are 18 and over.
haha.k maybe i shall stop explaining myself.


dun send things that u dun mean.
that u send to everyother person.
am i being selfish?u tell me.

and so wad?

sometimes no matter how hard u try it never seems to wrk.
ever asked ur self WHY?
'its not u...its me' cliche.
nth wrks.
and dun give me the bull that it will be better.
FUCK that.

people change...
and i think i'm changing alot currently.
i''m flaring up easily...
my patience is grwing shorter...

oh man why things cant be simple anymre?